I'm Done

[Guest guest]

I guess it is now official, I will be seeing no doctor. Unless

someone finds me unconscious and calls for help, I certainly won't

be calling for any help myself. Furthermore, I will no longer be

taking any pain medication, stomach pills or anything else. It's

alright that my GI Doc and my surgeon don't know what to do, I can

deal with that. But to have my PCP send a letter to my pain Doc (who

I have been seeing for 7 months) insinuating that I am using the

hospital ER/Inpatient to receive pain medication, he has crossed the

line. What a pompass a$$ jerk, and god help him if I see him in

public because I will ride his a$$ like it's never been ridden

before. Who in the h* & ! does he think he is? Well good going,

because I now refuse to go to the doctor, hospital, or pain doc. 4

months ago they tell me I have gastroparesis. 3 months ago they do

surgery to fix it. 8 weeks ago they tell me I have pancreatitis

(including the elevated lipase). 4 weeks ago they tell me that they

think I might have a tumor. And now yesterday I must be drug

seeking. I've had it, and I hope that noone else has to go through

what I have gone through. And yes, as I type this I have to hold my

stomach……(actually it's a " reflex " to pain to hold the area that

hurts) due to the pain. I walk hunched over because it hurts to

stand straight. I told my pain doc yesterday that I wish they had

found a tumor because at least I would know, and at least the end

might be in sight. I told the pain doc that they could all go to h* &

(. And I really mean it. Good luck to all. If it gets too bad, I'll

fix it myself.

Boo