Symptoms recognized?

[Guest guest]

Hello everybody!

I have tried to read up on a couple of weeks mails and found so much

helpful information. Just couple of recognized symptoms to see if and

who would have had them, if they are related, if any of you had answers

given to why. I already have a lot of answers that I did not realize was

perhaps CP from the mails I have read on the board.

Fattigue to the point where I feel as if fainting. Loosing balance. Like

carbonated water in my body (legs), aching and as if stretched and

twisted. I cant think clearly, loosing concentration. Aching body at

night (not the back, left rib as when CP attack, just the whole body,

especially legs) feeling totally drained. Blurry view, hard to focus

with my eyes.

Hunger, waking up middle of the nigtht craving for sweets. I can do

anything for something sweet, nearly knock someone down. Gaining weight,

from 53 kg (skinny as I am 173 cm tall) to 64 kg and putting on

gradually day by day. I dont eat more than 20-30 g fat low calorie and

low protein, celiac (glutenfree) and lactosfree. Less CP pain the last 3

months while putting on weight. Happy for those kilos but as some of you

wrote, when does it end? Can this have something to do with prediabetes?

Waking up middle of the night 3-4 times to urinate. Thirst. I have done

bloodsugar fastingtests, only high once. I am crazy about cinnamon,

tablespoons, cant stop. Someone said to me thats got to do with

bloodsugar, anyone knows?

Total despair at times, just dont want another day fearing the killing

pain I had for so many months, the life which is no longer life because

I am not in control. My soul dont want to live in this body but how do

you leave it or accept it. I did get helped by advice from the group

taking Xanax, very addictive and try to take just 2 a day to be able to

go on. There are times when I just want to scream out loud NO. Thank you

for beeing out there, I do get tears in my eyes when I read many of the

mails and just knowing that you are there and understand is wonderful.

Love you all brave people. And why are we so badly treated by doctors

and medcare? It seems to be the rule more than exception, any country.

Isn´t it enought suffering from this hells desease? I just get it

confirmed time after time reading about the same humiliating and

indifferent treatment in your letters as I am going through, well at

least it shows I am not alone.

Lets hope we all find an understanding Doc as some of you have done, no

cure but lots of help on the way.

With Love and Regards from Sonja in Stockholm