missing my friends..........

June 15, 2004

Hi Friends:

I know it has been way to long since I checked in.....I blame it all

on my depression.....it keeps me from alot of things these days, it

seems. I just got done with a weeks worth of IV fluids & IV

phenergan at home....gosh I just love the " at home " part of the deal.

My home care nurse came to flush my port, and she knew I was very

sick, for me. She didn't even ask me what I wanted to do, she just

picked up the phone & called my doctors office & had them order me

stuff. She is the greatest thing that has happened during this long

fight with this illness.

My oldest daughter, Amy, crashed my car again........this time she

went to switch lanes, and forgot to check the other lane for a car,

and CRASH! She goes to court on the 22nd. Hopefully they will make

her go to traffic court. The first time she slip off the icey road

into a tree, so there were no cops called. Neither time did the air

bags go off, so that shows me she wasn't going too fast, right?

Just something else to add to my depression. I know I need to come

to this place that gives me all the support I need. I just can't

seem to get myself to even leave my own room anymore.....sad really.

I will try, I promise....its just that I've been fighting with all

this non-sense for over 12 years now. There has to be something that

has improved from the start of this nightmare till now? Maybe the

only thing is that I can do the IV's at home now instead of in the

hospital? Not much of an improvement in my book..........

Hope everyone is doing as great as possible. I will try to check in

soon....Sorry for being a party pooper here. Its just me.

Lots of Hugs,

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