Re: Here I am...

[Guest guest]

Lara dear, What would you say if one day you learned that obesity and

depression are encoded on your DNA and you are simply playing the role that

the powers had chosen for you? What would you say if you finally and

absolutely knew that your behaviors were chemically mandated?

Get the right dose and type of meds to change your chemistry and allow you to

feel well and see clearly. And then . . .

DANCE! You are the best Lara Akin ever there was. You are a work in

progress. A work of great art. No one has ever done Lara Akin before. How,

then, could you be wrong? And your story is far from written. Write on,

Dear Lara. You are not the problem. But you are the solution. BE well.

Judy

[Guest guest]

> Hey Group,

> Just wanted everyone to know that I am okay. I am struggling quite

a

> bite and emotionally I am a wreak. When I first came upon Dr.

> Rutledges site I was so happpy that my fat days were over. I have

> been this way for so long that I did not know what life was truely

> like. I was so excited and knew that finally I was going to become

> the Lara that God wanted me to be. Well, s law decided to

come

> into play. I started to slide and I was so ashamed of myself that

I

> could not bear to tell any of you. Right now I am struggling and

> doing a lot of crying and asking God to help me. This has been the

> hardest thing I have ever done. I am trying to get my meds uped to

a

> higher dose because the depression has kicked into overdrive and I

> am just above functionable at this time. My day consists of crying

> and trying to take care of my son. The MGB has consumed all my

> thoughts, dreams, and hopes. I want it so bad that I have an ache

in

> my body. But for some reason I just cannot stop eating. As I am

> sitting here barely able to see the keys from the tears I am so

> ashamed that all of you have been inspired by me just to have me

> fail. I never realized until a couple of weeks ago the true

> addictive power of food. The way it feels in my mouth and the

> emotions that go along with it. This weight on my body got here

> through years of abuse and emotional roller coaster rides, and it

is

> not coming off any easier. My mother-in-law told me that as long

as

> I am trying that I am not failing. The emotional baggage is still

> there and I have to overcome that along with the weight. I love

her

> dearly for loving me enough to say that to me. My dear friend

> , as you all know, was worried and woke me up this morning.

So

> I am posting because I promised her I would. Ranee Riggs has also

> been there for me and I thank the good Lord everyday for her. To

all

> of you who wrote to me. I recieved everyone of the e-mails but I

was

> too ashamed to admit that I need help. My dear husband has really

> been a rock too. Everytime I cry or get upset he is there to hold

me

> and comfort me. He has really been through the ringer with me. I

am

> sooo blessed to have all the things I have. I am praying for that

> light at the end of the tunnel so that my day to dance will come.

>

> Lara

Lara,

YOU ARE NOT A FAILURE. The only way you fail is if you quit and I

know from reading your emails that you are not a quitter. You had a

minor setback. There's not a person on this list that hasn't had one.

Please don't think that you have disappointed us in any way. We are

family and we are all here to support and encourage each other. I too

believe in the power of prayer and I will be praying for you in this

struggle. Remember Philippians 4:13 " I can do all things through

Christ who strengthens me. " Fight the good fight, it's worth the

struggle.

Suzanne in NC

mgb 7/17/00

254/221

[Guest guest]

Dear Lara,

We are crying with you. Just remember that you are loved and that God sends

trials not to impair you but to improve you. Hang in there - this too shall

pass.

Tarri in Missouri

Here I am...

> Hey Group,

> Just wanted everyone to know that I am okay. I am struggling quite a

> bite and emotionally I am a wreak. When I first came upon Dr.

> Rutledges site I was so happpy that my fat days were over. I have

> been this way for so long that I did not know what life was truely

> like. I was so excited and knew that finally I was going to become

> the Lara that God wanted me to be. Well, s law decided to come

> into play. I started to slide and I was so ashamed of myself that I

> could not bear to tell any of you. Right now I am struggling and

> doing a lot of crying and asking God to help me. This has been the

> hardest thing I have ever done. I am trying to get my meds uped to a

> higher dose because the depression has kicked into overdrive and I

> am just above functionable at this time. My day consists of crying

> and trying to take care of my son. The MGB has consumed all my

> thoughts, dreams, and hopes. I want it so bad that I have an ache in

> my body. But for some reason I just cannot stop eating. As I am

> sitting here barely able to see the keys from the tears I am so

> ashamed that all of you have been inspired by me just to have me

> fail. I never realized until a couple of weeks ago the true

> addictive power of food. The way it feels in my mouth and the

> emotions that go along with it. This weight on my body got here

> through years of abuse and emotional roller coaster rides, and it is

> not coming off any easier. My mother-in-law told me that as long as

> I am trying that I am not failing. The emotional baggage is still

> there and I have to overcome that along with the weight. I love her

> dearly for loving me enough to say that to me. My dear friend

> , as you all know, was worried and woke me up this morning. So

> I am posting because I promised her I would. Ranee Riggs has also

> been there for me and I thank the good Lord everyday for her. To all

> of you who wrote to me. I recieved everyone of the e-mails but I was

> too ashamed to admit that I need help. My dear husband has really

> been a rock too. Everytime I cry or get upset he is there to hold me

> and comfort me. He has really been through the ringer with me. I am

> sooo blessed to have all the things I have. I am praying for that

> light at the end of the tunnel so that my day to dance will come.

>

> Lara

>

>

>

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>

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[Guest guest]

Lara,

I am glad to hear from you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You have not FAILED!!!! You are still in the fight.

We all get knocked down, but you have to keep getting

up and fighting that fight. Keep reminding yourself

of why you want this, and why you need this. We are

all here for you, I think you need us to return the

support that you have so freely given us. This is not

a bad thing, I for one would love the chance to return

the favor.

You are in my prayers and know that you are welcome to

come back or write us individually if you feel like

talking. We don't want to make things worse for you

though. I am glad to hear that you are ok and if you

want to talk, please email me at kristi989@...

you hang in there girl, it will happen, it will happen

when God wants it to, right?

Love ya gal!

Kristi in AL

--- Lara Akin wrote:

> Hey Group,

> Just wanted everyone to know that I am okay. I am

> struggling quite a

> bite and emotionally I am a wreak. When I first

> came upon Dr.

> Rutledges site I was so happpy that my fat days were

> over. I have

> been this way for so long that I did not know what

> life was truely

> like. I was so excited and knew that finally I was

> going to become

> the Lara that God wanted me to be. Well, s

> law decided to come

> into play. I started to slide and I was so ashamed

> of myself that I

> could not bear to tell any of you. Right now I am

> struggling and

> doing a lot of crying and asking God to help me.

> This has been the

> hardest thing I have ever done. I am trying to get

> my meds uped to a

> higher dose because the depression has kicked into

> overdrive and I

> am just above functionable at this time. My day

> consists of crying

> and trying to take care of my son. The MGB has

> consumed all my

> thoughts, dreams, and hopes. I want it so bad that

> I have an ache in

> my body. But for some reason I just cannot stop

> eating. As I am

> sitting here barely able to see the keys from the

> tears I am so

> ashamed that all of you have been inspired by me

> just to have me

> fail. I never realized until a couple of weeks ago

> the true

> addictive power of food. The way it feels in my

> mouth and the

> emotions that go along with it. This weight on my

> body got here

> through years of abuse and emotional roller coaster

> rides, and it is

> not coming off any easier. My mother-in-law told me

> that as long as

> I am trying that I am not failing. The emotional

> baggage is still

> there and I have to overcome that along with the

> weight. I love her

> dearly for loving me enough to say that to me. My

> dear friend

> , as you all know, was worried and woke me up

> this morning. So

> I am posting because I promised her I would. Ranee

> Riggs has also

> been there for me and I thank the good Lord everyday

> for her. To all

> of you who wrote to me. I recieved everyone of the

> e-mails but I was

> too ashamed to admit that I need help. My dear

> husband has really

> been a rock too. Everytime I cry or get upset he is

> there to hold me

> and comfort me. He has really been through the

> ringer with me. I am

> sooo blessed to have all the things I have. I am

> praying for that

> light at the end of the tunnel so that my day to

> dance will come.

>

> Lara

>

>

>

> This message is from the Mini-Gastric Bypass Mailing

> List at Onelist.com

> Please visit our web site at http://clos.net

> Get the Patient Manual at

> http://clos.net/get_patient_manual.htm

>

> and for more on the MGB,Don't miss :

> http://www.fourlane.com/mgb

>

> To Unsubscribe Send and Email to:

> MiniGastricBypass-unsubscribe (AT) egroups (DOT) com

>

>

=====

Kristi in AL

BMI49

current 288

surgery date 9/21

__________________________________________________

[Guest guest]

Lara,

Please don't feel ashamed or like a failure. You are not a failure

and there is nothing to be ashamed of. We have all been there and we

know how hard it is. Please keep on trying so you can get the MGB.

We're all here for you and praying for your success.'

in Charlotte

-- In MiniGastricBypass (AT) egroups (DOT) com, " Lara Akin "

<BlueEyedDaisy2000@e...> wrote:

> Hey Group,

> Just wanted everyone to know that I am okay. I am struggling quite

a

> bite and emotionally I am a wreak. When I first came upon Dr.

> Rutledges site I was so happpy that my fat days were over. I have

> been this way for so long that I did not know what life was truely

> like. I was so excited and knew that finally I was going to become

> the Lara that God wanted me to be. Well, s law decided to

come

> into play. I started to slide and I was so ashamed of myself that

I

> could not bear to tell any of you. Right now I am struggling and

> doing a lot of crying and asking God to help me. This has been the

> hardest thing I have ever done. I am trying to get my meds uped to

a

> higher dose because the depression has kicked into overdrive and I

> am just above functionable at this time. My day consists of crying

> and trying to take care of my son. The MGB has consumed all my

> thoughts, dreams, and hopes. I want it so bad that I have an ache

in

> my body. But for some reason I just cannot stop eating. As I am

> sitting here barely able to see the keys from the tears I am so

> ashamed that all of you have been inspired by me just to have me

> fail. I never realized until a couple of weeks ago the true

> addictive power of food. The way it feels in my mouth and the

> emotions that go along with it. This weight on my body got here

> through years of abuse and emotional roller coaster rides, and it

is

> not coming off any easier. My mother-in-law told me that as long

as

> I am trying that I am not failing. The emotional baggage is still

> there and I have to overcome that along with the weight. I love

her

> dearly for loving me enough to say that to me. My dear friend

> , as you all know, was worried and woke me up this morning.

So

> I am posting because I promised her I would. Ranee Riggs has also

> been there for me and I thank the good Lord everyday for her. To

all

> of you who wrote to me. I recieved everyone of the e-mails but I

was

> too ashamed to admit that I need help. My dear husband has really

> been a rock too. Everytime I cry or get upset he is there to hold

me

> and comfort me. He has really been through the ringer with me. I

am

> sooo blessed to have all the things I have. I am praying for that

> light at the end of the tunnel so that my day to dance will come.

>

> Lara

[Guest guest]

Lara, We are all thinking of you. What you need to do is get " pumped

up " ! You know you can lose it one pound at a time if you will keep in

mind " this is the last time I will have to lose THIS POUND! " Come on

you can do it! We are all here for you and will support you in any

way you need us to!

Dinah in AL

> Hey Group,

> Just wanted everyone to know that I am okay. I am struggling quite

a

> bite and emotionally I am a wreak. When I first came upon Dr.

> Rutledges site I was so happpy that my fat days were over. I have

> been this way for so long that I did not know what life was truely

> like. I was so excited and knew that finally I was going to become

> the Lara that God wanted me to be. Well, s law decided to

come

> into play. I started to slide and I was so ashamed of myself that

I

> could not bear to tell any of you. Right now I am struggling and

> doing a lot of crying and asking God to help me. This has been the

> hardest thing I have ever done. I am trying to get my meds uped to

a

> higher dose because the depression has kicked into overdrive and I

> am just above functionable at this time. My day consists of crying

> and trying to take care of my son. The MGB has consumed all my

> thoughts, dreams, and hopes. I want it so bad that I have an ache

in

> my body. But for some reason I just cannot stop eating. As I am

> sitting here barely able to see the keys from the tears I am so

> ashamed that all of you have been inspired by me just to have me

> fail. I never realized until a couple of weeks ago the true

> addictive power of food. The way it feels in my mouth and the

> emotions that go along with it. This weight on my body got here

> through years of abuse and emotional roller coaster rides, and it

is

> not coming off any easier. My mother-in-law told me that as long

as

> I am trying that I am not failing. The emotional baggage is still

> there and I have to overcome that along with the weight. I love

her

> dearly for loving me enough to say that to me. My dear friend

> , as you all know, was worried and woke me up this morning.

So

> I am posting because I promised her I would. Ranee Riggs has also

> been there for me and I thank the good Lord everyday for her. To

all

> of you who wrote to me. I recieved everyone of the e-mails but I

was

> too ashamed to admit that I need help. My dear husband has really

> been a rock too. Everytime I cry or get upset he is there to hold

me

> and comfort me. He has really been through the ringer with me. I

am

> sooo blessed to have all the things I have. I am praying for that

> light at the end of the tunnel so that my day to dance will come.

>

> Lara