RE: Hello everyone.. (sorry.. long)

[Guest guest]

Hi Terri! You're right...I was reading it and almost in tears!!!

Honey, I know how you feel about eating anyway. I starved myself, or ate

anything I wanted - got the exact same results! I wish so much that there

was something I could do to help you. Have you tried to change jobs to get

different insurance? Even if you could only work there a short time, and

get the surgery. I guess that's not very ethical but we're talking about

your LIFE!!!

I'll think on it more.... Are you a member of a church? Could they have

some sort of fundraiser to help you? Now that RR is doing surgery at

on Thursdays, their rate is a bit cheaper. Could that help?

Take care, and you remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Blessings,

~Amy.

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Amy S. Poe

MGB 5/22/2000 *I made it!*

280/225/140

http://onhealth.com/women/in-depth/item/item,91744_1_1.asp

Hello everyone.. (sorry.. long)

Well, I've been lurking for a few days now and just wanted to make

myself known once again.. I've been on a " leave of absence " for a few

months now but wanted to see what my " other " family was up to

lately.. Guess nothing has really changed.. For those of you who

don't know me, I have been seeking WLS for about 2 1/2 years now and

have been trying to get the MGB for almost a year now with no hope in

sight.. I am one of those unfortunate souls who has medicaid and the

same week I was approved, I learned that Durham Regional had put all

Medicaid/Medicare/Vocational Rehab on hold for at least 6 months..

That was 4 months ago.. It seems like it's been years already.. I

also heard a rumor that Dr R was thinking on stopping the same

patients because he had too many self pay patients and those

with " real insurance " <as Durham regional likes to call it> that he

just could not keep up.. I tried to email Debbie when I heard it but

she would neither confirm or deny it so I still don't know if it was

just rumor or not.. I can't tell you how envious I am of all those

post ops! But, on the other hand, i wish you all the best! I really

wished i could have joined you on the other side but, I don't ever

see it happening.. As I said once before, i have hit a titanium steel

wall and I have yet to " invent " anything that will penetrate it..

But, I guess God has his own plan for me.. I have not even looked at

my web page since i left let alone updated it.. It's too painful for

me right now.. As some of you knew, my fiance and I were planning on

moving sometime in the very near future.. Well, We finally moved

about a month ago.. We are in a great place and our 20 month old son

has LOTS of room to run.. This also means that I am much more tired

once he goes to bed because I am trying to keep him out of

everything.. Of course, the extra excercise still isn't doing me any

good.. For the first 3 weeks I ran myself to the point of almost

being sick from exhaustion.. I almost never sat down to take a break

because of unpaking and repacking so I could make more room in the

boxes, then moving all the boxes from one house to another and then

unpacking and even repacking to rearrange the stuff in the boxes..

Heck, I even packed and repacked the same closet 3 TIMES!! Then we

had a few friends staying with us so I had to unpack the extra room

to make a guest room.. I never thought I had so much energy.. But, i

knew it had to get done and since my fiance works nights and sleeps

during the day, i knew no one else was going to do it but me.. And

yet, after all that was said and done, I STILL GAINED 2

POUNDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dang.. I didn't stop eating but almost.. I went

down from 3 meals and 2 mini-meals to 2 meals a day!!! Half the time

i even skipped and only had one meal!!! Can someone explain this to

me? I can't begin to tell you how depressed this made me.. Now I

can't stop eating because i figure, hell.. I might as well eat it

since I'm only going to gain weight anyways, what's the point?! I

NEED HELP HERE!! Ok Amy!! I know you are reading this and almost in

tears!! Don't worry.. So am I.. I feel like there is no hope for me..

Am I fighting a losing battle or does it end somewhere? I want this

surgery so damn bad!!! Unfortunately, if I can't have the MGB, I

can't have it at all.. All of our family is out of state and we are

barely getting by financially.. Not only could we not afford a sitter

for 2 weeks for our son, I couldn't even think of giving him to

someone for that long.. There is no way I could have WLS with someone

who wants to keep me in the hospital for 2 weeks even for a lap... I

am trying so hard to be positive but it's getting more and more

difficult every single day when i think about my future and the

future of my family... We want to have another child someday but, at

314, there is no way my body could handle it.. It can barely handle

me.. What am I supposed to tell my son when he asks why he don't have

a brother or sister? " I'm sorry but, mommy is too fat to have

another baby " ... I'm sorry guys.. I really didn't mean to depress

you.. I guess I just have a lot of things on my mind right now.. If

nothing else, thank you for reading it.. <HUGZ>

In my thoughts and prayers,

Terri

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