Re : Relief at Last to Andre

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Hello Andre,

I do hope you are only to going to have to wait a short time until

you get relief again.

I do know how you feel. It is so frustrating to have to accept that

there is no simple answer to our disease. One longs to know why it

isn't a simple op to remove the darned thing and EASILY replace

artificially everything it produces. They can do so much medically

to-day that it's hard to believe they can't readily deal with the

pancreas yet. So please do vent.

I wept on Monday evening throughout that awful attack......pain

everywhere.....and continued to do so throughout Tuesday and

Wednesday while I had that hideous band-of-pain all round my upper-

abdomen and deep inside. My pain is a lot better just now but one

knows it can start up again at any moment. It's like having a wild

beast inside one which needs to make its presence felt on a regular

basis!

Andre...perhaps the lawn must come second to your well-being.

(Sorry....I realise that might sound rude or preachy. I don't mean

to be rude, honestly.) I guess that you resent the fact that you

can't do this normal job. I feel just the same about a number of

things....eg. whenever I go out for a meal with friends, I wish I

was " normal " and could eat and drink what I liked. It's so long

since I was able to do so that I've almost forgotten what it was

like. Good red wine, hunks of buttered baguette, a wedge of Brie or

Stilton, strawberries and cream, cheesecake, a liqueur to finish a

meal! Hot chocolate and croissants at breakfast!! Remember these?!

I suppose a consolation is that they are not very good for anyone

really....but just a little now and then would be lovely!

I'm not being trivial Andre. I know that work, including gardening,

is much more serious than a wide range of (unhealthy!) foods and you

must feel it is your " right " to be able to do your lawn. Sadly, life

doesn't seem to work like that, does it? I wish it did. The body

and its health variations can be a tyrant.

I do hope you manage to find a solution to the lawn prob. I can

understand that you want it to look nice and a gardener is

expensive. Perhaps some kind person will offer to do it for you,

either for free or for a modest sum. I hope and pray so.

Please vent Andre. You have to do so in a forum where people

undertand both the pain itself and the frustrations it causes.

Roll on your next improvement stage. May it arrive soon and last a

very long time!

With very good wishes,

Fliss (UK)