hi all

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Hi everyone:

I haven't been posting for awhile because I have felt pretty bad.

On top of all of that, my brother in law (sister's hubby) who has

had lung cancer for the last two yeras and did very well with chemo

(disease was gone) was diagnosed March 30 with pancreatic and liver

cancer! This was 5 weeks after the last CT scan which was clear.

The tumor started out at 7.4 cm. After three weeks of chemo the

tumor is now 12.7 cm with three tumors (big ones) on the liver.

The prognosis is horrid and he is in so much pain although I think

they are getting it under control now. He refuses hospice care

(stubborn and I don't blame him). The doctor said that there are

some other chemo's that he can try and he is going to check it out

this week as to the one that has the best chance for his situation.

Although he told him it was a 10% chance!

I know it is useless, but he is not ready to give up. They live in

Michigan. When he is in pain, it is just so horrible for him. My

husband went back up to help. They smoke in the house and I can't

go. I don't have the money for a hotel room for any length of time.

Unless something changes, I won't get to see him before he dies. It

is breaking my heart. But, he and my husband have always been close

since before we were married and we will have been married 31 years

in July. It has really helped that hubby is up there. Plus he is

doing some things around their house. You would have to know my

hubby he get right in there and help and offer to do things. We all

know how it is when things need to be done, you can't do them and

can't afford to hire them done.

Today he power washed the house for them and did some landscaping

and is putting in cable connections, etc. He is the " Tim the

Toolman " for sure. Actually his title at work is Master

Craftsman/fabricator. He can do anything. So that is his way of

helping.

It broke my heart yesterday because my brother in law thanked me

for " letting " him come! How sad is that? He has been up there

about 6 times in the last two years and was just up in November.

Whatever he can do to help I am so glad he can. My sister calls him

brother not brother in law.

Keep us in your prayers, those who pray. It is a sad situation and

everytime I hear he is in pain, I can almost feel it and it has to

be worse than what I can imagine.

God bless you all

Kaye..........NC