To Sonja

[Guest guest]

Glad you had such a nice holiday. Tammy M.

[Guest guest]

Hej Sonja,

My dear brother Marc called me only moments ago from Stockholm and

told me that it was snowing, and he, too, was depressed and unhappy.

Much more so than ever before, and it worries me to see him this way.

His depression is about a family matter with our elderly father that

we haven't been able to resolve, but may have to, in a way that will

bring much unwanted adjustments for the old man.

It worries me that you would want to bring an end to your life, that

you could ever be so miserable that you would even think of doing so.

You should reach from within yourself to find the reasons you want to

thrive and to look forward to each day.

Being alone can be very depressing, and your location at this time of

year can be such a downer, with it being dark so many hours of each

day. We thrive on our sunlight, and you aren't seeing enough of it.

Don't forget, spring will be arriving soon and your days will be

longer and brighter with the joys of new growth.

Perhaps this gastroscopy WILL show something different. You never

know, and if you have been in more pain it may be because of some new

development, something that they can do something about to bring you

some relief from your pain.

Has your shrink thought of trying you on a different antidepressant?

If the intented results aren't taking place on one medication, that

would indicate to me that perhaps another type would be considered,

don't you think?

It isn't unusual to envy those who can do everything that you cannot.

Those of us with a chronic pain condition have much reason to wish

that we could function like those who are healthy and well, and then

do our best to do whatever we can to find our own contentment. The

spirit to do so comes from within, and for each of us it is different.

You are loved, and there are many here who want to help you and see

that our support is reaching you.

I pray that you will wake to a brighter day, and find many more ahead.

With love, hope and prayers,

Heidi

Heidi H. Griffeth

Bluffton, SC

South Carolina State Rep.

South Eastern Regional Rep., PAI

http://www.pancassociation.org/anthology#Heidi.html

Note: All comments or advice are from personal experiences or opinion

only, and should not be a substitute for consultation with a medical

professional.

Sonja wrote:

> I am there , reading your mail made me understand that my

box with the pills I hoped would set an end to tomorrow might not do

it. Cant be social anymore, envy everyone, hate to put on my its OK

face, I love my lettuce and fatfree glutenfree bread and cheese, dont

worry I am alive how wonderful from nearly dead I am here 24 pounds

heavier, dont feel sorry for me, I am SO grateful.