PRAYERS FOR DAD

[Guest guest]

Well it is 11:30 and I am just getting back from the hospital. My

father had a heart attack and he is in ICU. They said he was stable

for the night and for us to go home instead of sitting in the waiting

room. Which I did against my will. He died last year from an

arteriagram right before my eyes and they brought him back. But he

has so much blockage that there is nothing they can really do. SO the

Dr. wanted my sister and I to make some life or death decisions. He

is looking at her (which is another story but he is her Dr.also

because she has already had 4 open heart surgeries and just last year

he put stints in because she had blockage.. and this Tues she is

suppose to have a liver biopsy because they just put her on the liver

transplant list) and at me with my bald head because in the rush I

forgot I didnt have my hat on and is trying to figure out of the 3 of

us who is well enough to make a decision. We just had to laugh on

that one,I said just dig a big hole and throw us all in. She is my

only sister and is only 43. Well my dad said he didnt want any test,

machines or cpr. I am totaly devastated he is only 77 and my mom died

at 59.So it looks like I will be busy crawling (not kidding) thru

the halls of the hospital for awhile between her and my dad. I just

pray thats all I will be doing and nothing worse. Heaven knows where

I am going to find the strength, because I have been having such

extreme fatigue, muscle weakness and nausea. But if God is giving me

yet another test I just hope I at least make a C average on it. I

dont need to pass with honors.haaha Sorry if I am rambling on but I

dont think I can take anymore stress right now and this was my only

way of letting go of some.We always have one disater after another in

our family and it just seems no let up. I always told Kim my daughter

that God gives only the strong ones the problems because he knows

that they can handle them. Well she told me to tell him that we are

not strong anymore. But he knows that we are so good at it that he

just keeps them coming. Oh well I am going to try and get some rest

(no sleep)

and let God take over , I'm tired. Please remember my family in your

prayers and I will be doing the same for each of you since it seems

like we are all having our own personal crisis. Love, prayers and

hugs (which I could use alot of right now)