devestated

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hi everyone,

i went and had my pulminary function test done today. i'm devestated

by the results. my last test i had a 47 % function it has droped to

17% within just a few months. they are threatning to put me in the

hospital if it dosen't improve within 2 weeks. i haven't done my

medicine like i'm suppose to. i'm gonna start doing them but i don't

know if it could improve my test in such a short period of time. i'm

just having a really hard time right now. people have suggested i go

to counseling to deal with it and should do counseling with my

husband also. he has never been around a sick person and i've never

been really sick around him. we just got married in june and every 5

minutes he thinks i'm going to die. i have alot going on right now

and just need to vent i guess. see i was a sick child but never to

the extreme of constantly being sick it went about every other year

i would get really sick. well now it seems like every six months i

am getting sick and don't know what to do about it. i know they say

a positive attitude helps keep you healthy but how can you have one

when something bad has happened to you in the last three years. i

just feel like everything i've ever wanted out of life i will never

be able to do. like be a teacher, or have a child, or go through a

pregnancy. i would love to do those things but it will never happen.

i might be able to adopt but that could be years away yet.

thank you for listening

mindy