Re: Stressing out ... the nightmares have started

[Guest guest]

Luna,

I am so sorry the worry this has caused you; I truly am. We all know

what a long and tedious process the prep-work for this surgery is, and

I can't imagine having to deal with the financial aspect of it this

close to your surgery date. I wish I had logistical advice for you,

but all I can say is that you are in my thoughts and remember that

things have a way of working themselves out eventually, and I am

confident this will be a positive thing in your life (even though it

may be hard to see it now). I remember being devistated when my first

surgery was canceled due to medical issues. At the time, it seemed

like the light at the end of the tunnel was non-existant. Now, I am a

week and a half post-op and moving forward every day. I really hope

that things work out for you. As hard as it is, try to take one day

ata time, and remember why you started this journey to begin with!

Keep us posted.

> I am really worrying about finances. My surgery is less than a month

> away and I don't know how I'm going to pay for it .... Last night I

> dreamed that I woke up from my surgery in a hospital that had a

prison

> on the floor above me ... I was groggy and confused and afraid the

> prisoners would break out ... The nurse came in a few times, but

> mostly I was alone. She brought me sugar-coated walnuts to eat?! When

> I finally saw my face in a mirror, my chin was the same (ugly) shape

> it is now, but huge!

>

> STRESS!!!

>

> Luna

[Guest guest]

Luna,

I can certainly sympathize with your nightmares. I suffer from

strange ones, too. It's just your body's way of alleviating built up

information in your subconcious ... or some would say, at least.

Anyway, I know all about money worries. Just know that where there is

a will there is a way - and the way will be shown to you ... you just

have to have faith and DON'T GIVE UP!!!

Carol

> I am really worrying about finances. My surgery is less than a month

> away and I don't know how I'm going to pay for it .... Last night I

> dreamed that I woke up from my surgery in a hospital that had a

prison

> on the floor above me ... I was groggy and confused and afraid the

> prisoners would break out ... The nurse came in a few times, but

> mostly I was alone. She brought me sugar-coated walnuts to eat?! When

> I finally saw my face in a mirror, my chin was the same (ugly) shape

> it is now, but huge!

>

> STRESS!!!

>

> Luna

[Guest guest]

Thanks . Yeah, I was initially so excited at the thought of

doing the surgery six months sooner than planned (and hopefully

getting out of braces sooner, too!). I had hoped my bank would loan me

the $6,000 I needed, because I've paid down over $6,000 on my $10,000

car loan. But it didn't occur to me that the car loan is secured while

the surgery loan isn't. And I don't own anything else of value.

(Although I like to think my education is pretty valuable. And my

teeth and face, too, for that matter!)

Oh, well. I'm feeling pretty hopeless at the moment, but it'll work

out one way or another.

Luna

[Guest guest]

Thank, Carol. Yeah, I know the nightmares are natural.

I'm just so bummed. I was so excited about this until I got the news

from my bank. I was excited to get the surgery over with early, and to

go to Seattle, and to be with one of my favorite people in the whole

world. Now I just want to cry.

I guess maybe I need to start doing some affirmations or something.

Luna

[Guest guest]

Luna,

It sucks when you have a certain picture of how things are going to

go ... and then it doesn't work out that way. But, have faith and KNOW

that there is a reason for everything. What is meant to be ... will

be. Deep breaths ... keep hope alive ... stay positive.

We are all routing for you ... and praying for a solution that makes

you happy.

And hey ... a good cry is okay.

Hugs,

Carol

> Thank, Carol. Yeah, I know the nightmares are natural.

>

> I'm just so bummed. I was so excited about this until I got the news

> from my bank. I was excited to get the surgery over with early, and to

> go to Seattle, and to be with one of my favorite people in the whole

> world. Now I just want to cry.

>

> I guess maybe I need to start doing some affirmations or something.

>

> Luna