Re: Hello everyone this is hard for me so I'll post and see if anyone has ideas

[Guest guest]

Vimpireaid,

I am by no means putting you down.. However I do have a ? for you....

Don't you get sick from eating these things? I haven't had my surgery yet

but I'm in the process alot of people that I have talked to say that you get

very very sick eating certain things or eating too much thats why I ask the

? I know now *I haven't had surgery yet) but now i sometimes eat things i

shouldn't well actully alot of rimes lIKE TODAY i HAD ALOT OF THINGS I

KNOW ARE A NO NO sorry didn't realize bout the caps and i don't feel like

typin everthing again. anyway I can't explain y I still eat these things

I think in a way it's cause i know after surgery i won't be able to have

them ever again but i don't know . I mean i am doing alot better then I

was b4 the process but I'm not doing well in my opinion. i haven't lost ne

weight actully gained some i'm uncomfortable and ready to change

Love Debbie

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Okay, Hi everyone I am Bobbi. I had open gastric bypass surgery

December 7, 1998 and I was 460lbs. I was doing wonderful! By

December of 2000 I had lost 200 lbs down to 260. I slowly started

losing less and less but was still losing. My doctor teased me and

was horrible to me telling me I didnt want to try anymore. I was and

am an emotional eater and that hurt so bad I tried to commit

suicide. Two very dear friends happened to drop by that night and

found me and saved my life. Then my long distance boyfriend who knew

me before the surgery and then after decided to move in with me all

the way from louisiana to Idaho. He moved in with me April of 2002.

Since he moved in with me though I have been totally eating all the

wrong things at all the wrong times of day and in April I was 202 lbs

now I am 295lbs again! I have turned to food to solve my problems

again and I am so desperate to get back on track. I need so much

help and cant turn to my doctor anymore. His nurse tries to call me

because she thought he was out of line and she still believes I am a

good person with good intentions and I really am. I dont want to

creep back up to the 460lbs and I was down to a size 14 and now I am

back to a size 20/22. Please someone lead me in the right

direction. When I had the surgery he even sliced me open pretty big

and then when I got out of the hospital he didnt schedule a visit

with me for three months and no nutritionist no help with my meal

plans nothing! I did well my first month lost 50lbs eating tuna and

cottage cheese every meal 5 little meals of a little less than two

ounces. Now I eat WAY bigger portions than I know I should and I am

so desperate. My boyfriend (now fiance) went back home for a month

to work in place of his mom while she has surgery on her wrists so he

is gone right now and I am alone and having those thoughts of ending

it all. He wants to get married in March and a few days ago I

thought it would be fun to try to find a wedding dress I could set a

goal for and the lady in the store came up to me and said " we only

carry sizes up to a 16 " before I had a chance to even look. I was

hoping to find something to set a goal for and a size 16 was a pretty

good goal anyway but I ran out of the store to my car and sobbed.

Can someone please help me get back on track. Even my family and I

arent talking over the last year since I have been gaining weight

they all call me a failure. Thanks for listening.

[Guest guest]

Bobbi,

I have read your post and wanted to suggest you go back to your

weeks after surgery and start over again but add Protein to your

diet also like Shakes instead of food for every meal. I just had

surgery last week and on my clear liquids now but can have little

bit of sf jello/puddings etc... I wish you would think clearly

about how far you've come and decide to start over and give it

another try. These groups on Yahoo will give you so much support

and help you with valuable information to help you get started and

proceed to be much happier and look forward to that March wedding.

You might want to go and search our files and databases to

review " pouch rules " and other information that might help you.

Please do not go and end you life cause your only hurting others and

not yourself. Give these groups a chance!

Hugs, in AL.

[Guest guest]

Hi

I'm sorry you are going throu a ruff spot, because I can relate. I am waiting

to see the surgeon and for approval for wls (and am very nervous about it).

Five- six years ago I went the liquid protein shake way. I fasted for over a

year and lost almost 200 lbs. I looked great and my health was great, but I let

myself slip back into the old habits. Before I knew it, I " woke up " at 490 lbs

- bigger than before I fasted. To this day I can't tell you how it started or

why I didn't stop the compulsive overeating. I wish I had realized how bad it

was getting and turned it around. So, now I find myself waiting (and hoping

for) wls. I know how it feels to think of yourself in a negative way, but I

think now that the only answer is to concentrate on what you want for yourself.

Try to concentrate on the positives in your life, not the negatives. You are

lucky to have a guy who seems to love you no matter what, and if your family is

upset about your weight gain so what. It's not their life. Are you upset about

your weight gain? Then do it for you and for your health. Take it a day at a

time and get all the support you can. I wish you the best - you can do it!

Dawn