Re: i was in a very bad mood.

[Guest guest]

I'm so sorry you had a nasty patch there. They do happen -- and often

they are the result of the steroids the docs use to help keep the

swelling down (honest, it may not seem so, but it is) or of

anesthesia's aftereffects in your system. Pure biochemistry, plus

frustration.

If it keeps knocking you down, ask your doc for help. But I'll bet

they won't.

Nobody's posted about it in these terms recently, but back in 2001

when I was a newbie, it used to be called " hitting the wall. " It's a

frequent occurrance, but fortunately not usually an enduring one.

Best,

Cammie

> i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

> cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire process.

i

> was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

> right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was bored -

> but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to sleep. i

> basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

> couldn't really talk.

>

> my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

> when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone.

i'm

> on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll

call

> tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from

where

> the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

> surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and

where

> the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an upper

> jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i got

> the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

> scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

>

> i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and cheese -

> well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure).

took

> a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized i

> don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

> actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i

couldn't

> do for like 10 years.

>

> i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying to

> stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the

other

> side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but it

> eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for this )

>

> maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm

not

> sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

>

> -becky

[Guest guest]

My ears popped on and off for a month after the surgery. Not to say

that you shouldn't check with your surgeon just in case, but in the

meantime I wouldn't worry.

-

> i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

> cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire process.

i

> was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

> right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was bored -

> but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to sleep. i

> basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

> couldn't really talk.

>

> my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

> when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone.

i'm

> on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll

call

> tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from

where

> the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

> surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and

where

> the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an upper

> jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i got

> the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

> scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

>

> i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and cheese -

> well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure).

took

> a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized i

> don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

> actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i

couldn't

> do for like 10 years.

>

> i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying to

> stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the

other

> side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but it

> eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for this )

>

> maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm

not

> sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

>

> -becky

[Guest guest]

Who the heck is this Joey and why does s/he think it's not OK to cry?!

Goodness, if there's ever an appropriate time to cry, I would think

it's when you're post-surgical, hungry, tired, bored, swollen, etc.!

You just go ahead and cry as much as you need to. Luna

[Guest guest]

Yes Becky, I know the popping sound so well! Its like your on a plane

and your ears suddenly pop when really your still just lying down on

your darn bed in NYC! I think it has to do with all the internal

movement we've had that has also led to quite a lot of congestion so

the ears get blocked up much as they would during severe colds. So

don't panic just yet:-)

Sara

> > i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

> > cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire

process.

> i

> > was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

> > right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was

bored -

> > but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to

sleep. i

> > basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

> > couldn't really talk.

> >

> > my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

> > when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone.

> i'm

> > on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll

> call

> > tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from

> where

> > the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

> > surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and

> where

> > the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an

upper

> > jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i

got

> > the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

> > scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

> >

> > i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and

cheese -

> > well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure).

> took

> > a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized

i

> > don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

> > actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i

> couldn't

> > do for like 10 years.

> >

> > i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying

to

> > stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the

> other

> > side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but

it

> > eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for

this )

> >

> > maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm

> not

> > sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

> >

> > -becky

[Guest guest]

hehehe...joey is my fiance. i really am not supposed to cry because

if i build up pressure - it may push a hole through the fistula/bone

graft recovery site. so i was warned not to cry, blow my nose, suck

through a straw...etc.

but i would be grateful if next time you would cry for me

thanks for the smile )

-becky

> Who the heck is this Joey and why does s/he think it's not OK to cry?!

> Goodness, if there's ever an appropriate time to cry, I would think

> it's when you're post-surgical, hungry, tired, bored, swollen, etc.!

> You just go ahead and cry as much as you need to. Luna

[Guest guest]

cammie -

thanks for your support! it is very much like hitting some sort of

wall. the fiance tried to say it was the swelling/pain last stance -

one more time just to see if i was stronger...i thought he just was

watching too many war movies.

here's hoping it was just a patch (i think it was)...and thanks again )

-becky

> > i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

> > cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire process.

> i

> > was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

> > right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was bored -

> > but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to sleep. i

> > basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

> > couldn't really talk.

> >

> > my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

> > when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone.

> i'm

> > on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll

> call

> > tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from

> where

> > the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

> > surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and

> where

> > the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an upper

> > jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i got

> > the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

> > scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

> >

> > i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and cheese -

> > well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure).

> took

> > a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized i

> > don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

> > actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i

> couldn't

> > do for like 10 years.

> >

> > i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying to

> > stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the

> other

> > side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but it

> > eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for this )

> >

> > maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm

> not

> > sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

> >

> > -becky

[Guest guest]

yes! it's just like being on a plane...although you're plane is

probably flying to italy ) thanks for commiserating with me...we'll

definately have to do lunch one day (when we can finally eat again)!

-becky

> > > i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

> > > cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire

> process.

> > i

> > > was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

> > > right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was

> bored -

> > > but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to

> sleep. i

> > > basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

> > > couldn't really talk.

> > >

> > > my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

> > > when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone.

> > i'm

> > > on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll

> > call

> > > tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from

> > where

> > > the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

> > > surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and

> > where

> > > the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an

> upper

> > > jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i

> got

> > > the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

> > > scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

> > >

> > > i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and

> cheese -

> > > well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure).

> > took

> > > a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized

> i

> > > don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

> > > actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i

> > couldn't

> > > do for like 10 years.

> > >

> > > i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying

> to

> > > stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the

> > other

> > > side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but

> it

> > > eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for

> this )

> > >

> > > maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm

> > not

> > > sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

> > >

> > > -becky

[Guest guest]

Oh. Well, OK then. Maybe Joey does deserve you. ;-)

> > Who the heck is this Joey and why does s/he think it's not OK to cry?!

> > Goodness, if there's ever an appropriate time to cry, I would think

> > it's when you're post-surgical, hungry, tired, bored, swollen, etc.!

> > You just go ahead and cry as much as you need to. Luna

[Guest guest]

luna -

i showed joey our online conversation - and he requested a justified

addendum. there was no real yelling. he never actually yells (which

made the post funny for us because he's always so quite). he actually

strongly suggested not to cry. and then did some sort of crazy,

elaine-from-seinfield dance to make me stop - although i did warn him

not to make me laugh. but being as i was in a bad mood - i

interpretted this as yelling

thanks for coming to my defense though! we both got a good chuckle!

-becky

[Guest guest]

OK. Does Joey happen to have a single brother? Cuz now I'm thinking he

sounds really sweet. ;-# L

> luna -

>

> i showed joey our online conversation - and he requested a justified

> addendum. there was no real yelling. he never actually yells (which

> made the post funny for us because he's always so quite). he actually

> strongly suggested not to cry. and then did some sort of crazy,

> elaine-from-seinfield dance to make me stop - although i did warn him

> not to make me laugh. but being as i was in a bad mood - i

> interpretted this as yelling

>

> thanks for coming to my defense though! we both got a good chuckle!

>

> -becky

[Guest guest]

becky,

I just wanted to say that I know EXACTLY how you felt. That's it ...

just know that you are NOT ALONE!

Hugs,

Carol

> i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

> cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire process.

i

> was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

> right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was bored -

> but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to sleep. i

> basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

> couldn't really talk.

>

> my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

> when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone.

i'm

> on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll

call

> tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from

where

> the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

> surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and

where

> the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an upper

> jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i got

> the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

> scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

>

> i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and cheese -

> well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure).

took

> a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized i

> don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

> actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i

couldn't

> do for like 10 years.

>

> i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying to

> stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the

other

> side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but it

> eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for this )

>

> maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm

not

> sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

>

> -becky

[Guest guest]

becky,

Any guy that requests a " justified addendum " is AOKAY in my book!

I'm all about the words.

Carol

> luna -

>

> i showed joey our online conversation - and he requested a justified

> addendum. there was no real yelling. he never actually yells (which

> made the post funny for us because he's always so quite). he

actually

> strongly suggested not to cry. and then did some sort of crazy,

> elaine-from-seinfield dance to make me stop - although i did warn him

> not to make me laugh. but being as i was in a bad mood - i

> interpretted this as yelling

>

> thanks for coming to my defense though! we both got a good chuckle!

>

> -becky