Guest guest Posted August 23, 2004 Report Share Posted August 23, 2004 > Hi Jaydee! I'm a " newbie " here on this site, but not new to this process. I have been working since February trying to get all the tests, insurance papers, etc. etc. together and filed and my heart just went out to you because I know exactly how you feel. I have to go to repeat my sleep study this Friday because I couldn't sleep the first time and then they may want me on CPAP for six weeks after that and I'm still waiting for my insurance approval. Ughhhhhhh!!!! We are a society used to quick fixes and this operation is NOT that. So all thru this process I keep telling myself that God or whoever is just teaching me the patience that I will need to deal with the surgery and the life changes that I will be making to bring out the real me that is hidden under all this. If things get slowed down, there must be a reason and I have to ACCEPT that (so hard, so hard!) and wait for the right time to come. I think it will Jaydee, for you and for me. In the meantime, we have each other and all the other great people on this site that we can vent, bitch, question, etc. to our heart's content and learn a lot of what we need to learn in order for this process to be a success. . . and we WILL be SUCCESS Jaydee. I just know it!! Hang in there and know that there are a lot of people out here praying for you and wishing you well and following your progress. Whatever you do, don't isolate yourself! Feel free to contact me anytime, okay, and visualize the changes you want to see in yourself when you become a loser. Who ever thought we'd aspire to be losers, huh? Take care and God bless. Jolynn > > Hi all > > > Went to have the stress test today and as usual something happens. The dr blew my vein when he put the thalium in my arm and could not give me anymore. > So here I am waiting and waithing and waiting!!!!!! I have been on this journey for over a year now and every time I get close something happens. Do you think that maybe I am not suppose to have wls. I said if it was Gods will so maybe it is not his will but mine. I am begining to doubt myself and everything I have worked for. I am just tired of this waiting game. I wish I knew what to do. I would like to crawl in a hole and never come out. I am tired of waiting, waiting and life is passing me by. I don't do certain thing because of my weight and I keep thinking some day. I quess that day will never come. > Oh well life goes on ( and still passes by) Thanks for letting me vent and now its time to go cry some more. There has to be a lesson in this. I am just not getting it i quess. Oh well goodnite. > > Jaydee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 23, 2004 Report Share Posted August 23, 2004 Couldn't have said it better myself Jolynn. Very nice! Colleen Lap-RNY 11/03/03 315/193/??? > > Hi Jaydee! > I'm a " newbie " here on this site, but not new to this process. I > have been working since February trying to get all the tests, > insurance papers, etc. etc. together and filed and my heart just went > out to you because I know exactly how you feel. I have to go to > repeat my sleep study this Friday because I couldn't sleep the first > time and then they may want me on CPAP for six weeks after that and > I'm still waiting for my insurance approval. Ughhhhhhh!!!! > We are a society used to quick fixes and this operation is NOT > that. So all thru this process I keep telling myself that God or > whoever is just teaching me the patience that I will need to deal > with the surgery and the life changes that I will be making to bring > out the real me that is hidden under all this. If things get slowed > down, there must be a reason and I have to ACCEPT that (so hard, so > hard!) and wait for the right time to come. I think it will Jaydee, > for you and for me. > In the meantime, we have each other and all the other great people > on this site that we can vent, bitch, question, etc. to our heart's > content and learn a lot of what we need to learn in order for this > process to be a success. . . and we WILL be SUCCESS Jaydee. I just > know it!! > Hang in there and know that there are a lot of people out here > praying for you and wishing you well and following your progress. > Whatever you do, don't isolate yourself! Feel free to contact me > anytime, okay, and visualize the changes you want to see in yourself > when you become a loser. Who ever thought we'd aspire to be losers, > huh? Take care and God bless. > Jolynn > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 jolynn, Good insight and perspective on the trials of going through the hoops. I guess I was just fortunate enough not to have to go through the waiting and wondering. You may be on to something though concerning the building up of your patience. I knew that once I committed to this life, that living it would be the key to my success or fighting it would be my ultimate failure. I will share with you that as I laid in that bed in the hospital during recovery, that there was no way that I was going to let the depression from not being able to eat get to me. I have enough pressures outside of my new lifestyle to keep me humble and I do not have the luxury or time to sit around being down, there is way to much for me to get done. I still have great faith that I have done the right thing and I have gained another 10 to 20 years of life. I intend on living the remainder of my life with joy and happiness. I'm not so naive to not believe there will be more pain and sorrow in my life, but it will be because of my new life that I will be able to bear through those bad times more easily. Be strong and fresh courage take, change is coming your way and it will be great! -Ray > > Hi Jaydee! > I'm a " newbie " here on this site, but not new to this process. I > ::::SNIP:::: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 Jaydee, Hang in there. This is all worth it. Right when I began my journey I found a lump in my neck and had to deal with the possibility that it may be lymphoma. I thought to myself. Geez, I am trying to go through gastric bypass so that I can live a longer, happier, healthier life and now I may have cancer. Everything turned out to be okay of course, thank God! But it wasn't through a lot of Dr. appts. and lots of headaches that I got through it. Everything happens for a reason and sometimes we never really understand why. Please don't give up. You have come too far to let all of this " crap " get the best of you. Don't let it make you depressed, get mad, get angry and you tell yourself that this will happen and you will let nothing stop you. If you are serious about your health and really want this surgery then don't let anything stop you. I know we all need to vent, but sometimes we need someone to get a fire under our behinds too. Just remember - no pain, no gain ... so to speak! LOL! in Delaware Lap RNY 3/10/04 261/171/120 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 that was so awesome what you said thx !... from southern NJ jca523@... wrote:Jaydee, Hang in there. This is all worth it. Right when I began my journey I found a lump in my neck and had to deal with the possibility that it may be lymphoma. I thought to myself. Geez, I am trying to go through gastric bypass so that I can live a longer, happier, healthier life and now I may have cancer. Everything turned out to be okay of course, thank God! But it wasn't through a lot of Dr. appts. and lots of headaches that I got through it. Everything happens for a reason and sometimes we never really understand why. Please don't give up. You have come too far to let all of this " crap " get the best of you. Don't let it make you depressed, get mad, get angry and you tell yourself that this will happen and you will let nothing stop you. If you are serious about your health and really want this surgery then don't let anything stop you. I know we all need to vent, but sometimes we need someone to get a fire under our behinds too. Just remember - no pain, no gain ... so to speak! LOL! in Delaware Lap RNY 3/10/04 261/171/120 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 Jaydee, I don't think that God wants us to sit on the sidelines and not live our lives. I think that it makes Him happy when we finally go to see Him after we die and we skid in there sideways and have used everything up that our bodies had to give. He wants us to enjoy the world He has given us. But one thing that I had to learn through this process that spills over into my everyday spiritual life. It might not be in your timing. Everything happens in God's timing. We must learn patience, and that is one quality I did not have much of before beginning this process. It will happen, it just might not be in your time but it will be in His time. Hang in there. Stay strong and pray. Ask God for what you want. He wants us to come to Him boldly and ask Him for specifically what we want. He is still there for you and always will be. Trust in Him, and be patient. I hope that the realizations that I came to during this process and am now sharing with you will lighten the load you are carrying and free up your heart just a little. Hang in there it will happen. Dora in Tennessee Lap/Open RNY 9/20/2004 Vanderbilt Hospital Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 > I start out EVERYDAY with this little cocktail after I take one > baby aspirin chewed up with two COMPLETE childrens vitamins and an > extra strength Tums or two for the calcium I we all need and then > finish up with a sublingual cherry flavored mix of 833% B12, 50% > folic acid and 77% B6 tablet. A quick question, Fliphaven. Your doctor allows you to take aspirin? I know it is a low dose but I thought aspirin was on the list of meds not to take post-op since it can irritate the lining of the stomach. Your cocktail sounds great! My fiance takes his meds in low-sodium V8. Says it kills the taste. Kathy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 Oh I take my meds orally and chew them up. I don't add those to my cocktail. YIKES!!! Yes, baby aspirin is chewed up and is actually mostly absorbed linguily and orally so very little irritation gets to any area of the pouch. actually adds a supplement that protects the linings of the digestive tract as it is safe for kiddies too. If you have had ANY heart problems or HBP than an aspirin a day is absolutley necessary. Ask your Dr. if you would like to be on an aspirin regimine. > > I start out EVERYDAY with this little cocktail after I take one > > baby aspirin chewed up with two COMPLETE childrens vitamins and an > > extra strength Tums or two for the calcium I we all need and then > > finish up with a sublingual cherry flavored mix of 833% B12, 50% > > folic acid and 77% B6 tablet. > > A quick question, Fliphaven. Your doctor allows you to take > aspirin? I know it is a low dose but I thought aspirin was on the > list of meds not to take post-op since it can irritate the lining of > the stomach. > > Your cocktail sounds great! My fiance takes his meds in low- sodium > V8. Says it kills the taste. > > Kathy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 > > > Date: 2004/08/23 Mon PM 11:19:30 EDT > To: Gastric_Bypass_Family > Subject: Re: DEPRESSED > > Thanks Jolynn It is just so hard I have been researching this for almost 2 years now and I was going to have the mini gastric bypass with dr rutledge in nc but I just did not fill out all the paper workI quess Im just lazy, and fat. oh well I quess all we can do is hang in there. Thanks again Jaydee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 > > > Date: 2004/08/24 Tue AM 09:16:37 EDT > To: Gastric_Bypass_Family > Subject: Re: DEPRESSED > > Thanks I wish it was only that I had my psych a long time ago, and I don't have to fight with Insurance because Im self pay I quess I would be fit to be tied if I had that to deal with,but this is the second dr and I tend to get stressed out because I have been sick and I want to get thing under control before I can get sick again. thanks again jaydee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 > > From: jca523@... > Date: 2004/08/24 Tue AM 09:29:39 EDT > To: Gastric_Bypass_Family > Subject: Re: DEPRESSED > > Thanks julia I guess I need a big fire under my butt. Its kind of funny it was not funny yesterday and most day it is not but right now talking to all of you guys I feel better Like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. I have just been going thrrought some much and my daughter is 9 months pregant and we could go any day and I worrry about her and the list goes on and on. Hey my 3rd grand child. He will be only 4 yrs younger than my last child. life is grand some times. I guess it takes that fire to shows us how much. jaydee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 Thanks Ray! You're an inspiration! I checked out your pics! Great job! I hope you feel as great as you look! Jolynn in NY Re: DEPRESSED jolynn, Good insight and perspective on the trials of going through the hoops. I guess I was just fortunate enough not to have to go through the waiting and wondering. You may be on to something though concerning the building up of your patience. I knew that once I committed to this life, that living it would be the key to my success or fighting it would be my ultimate failure. I will share with you that as I laid in that bed in the hospital during recovery, that there was no way that I was going to let the depression from not being able to eat get to me. I have enough pressures outside of my new lifestyle to keep me humble and I do not have the luxury or time to sit around being down, there is way to much for me to get done. I still have great faith that I have done the right thing and I have gained another 10 to 20 years of life. I intend on living the remainder of my life with joy and happiness. I'm not so naive to not believe there will be more pain and sorrow in my life, but it will be because of my new life that I will be able to bear through those bad times more easily. Be strong and fresh courage take, change is coming your way and it will be great! -Ray > > Hi Jaydee! > I'm a " newbie " here on this site, but not new to this process. I > ::::SNIP:::: Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted August 24, 2004 Report Share Posted August 24, 2004 > > > Date: 2004/08/24 Tue AM 10:57:52 EDT > To: <Gastric_Bypass_Family > > Subject: RE: DEPRESSED > > Thanks I needed to hear all the things that everyone has said. I know all this. It is satan getting me down and I have let him. Thanks for the words of wisdom. I ask god to show me what to do and he has sent many messages through you guys thanks. You guys are the best. jaydee Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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