Carol

[Guest guest]

Carol,

I'm sorry to hear that today has just been " one " of those days for

you. I'm sure you've had more than your fair share of them lately.

For me I find the positivity comes and goes in waves. One minute I'm

being all chirpy and positive and determined to get over this period

and then something as stupid as taking the darn penicillin medicine

which makes me want to vomit can put me into the WORSE mood ever. Or

trying to join the conversation at dinner and having no one

understand what you're saying despite the fact that you're trying so

darn hard to enunciate your words clearly and it's pulling at your

wounds. Ugh. Makes you just want to stamp your feet and throw a

tantrum like a little kid.

When I get like this I tend to lock myself up in the bathroom so

that I can have myself a wee sob without any interfering and I get

to thinking about one phrase Dr. Sachs told me pre-op, " Remember

your recovery is just a phase in your life. It is not permanent and

things will go back to normal and they will be even better than

normal. " I think about all the pains I had pre-surgery such as not

being able to eat properly (ok so I still can't) and the headaches

(ok, so I'm pretty much still in pain now only that my jaw is forced

shut too and I need to take codeine daily) and I hang on to the hope

that once I get through this phase all will unfold like a magical

fairytale. I think it's pretty wonderous that we live in a time and

age where doctors can actually operate on us to solve our dental and

jaw problems. And as silly as it may be, for me hanging on to the

daydream of what my life will be like once i get this stupid splint

out and once i get the braces off and can open my jaw properly again

makes the whole ordeal a little more bearable. It may not be acting

positive per se but it helps me get back to that positive frame of

mind again. AND I am a big advocate of getting stuff off your chest

when you have to. If crying or throwing a fit is going to make you

feel better then do it. No one is Joan of Arc and lord knows our

patience is being tested right now. So stamp your feet and in the

process try to stamp some of that negativity away:-) You've come

this far and it's one heck of an achievement, if I may say so myself.

Sending you a huge virtual hug and wishing you a good saturday night.

Sara