Re: 20 months postop

September 29, 2003

OMG, Tara's response to your message, I could clone it! I, too,

cannot live without the carbs and sugars and at 19 mo post-op, for

now, I choose to incorporate them into my daily diet. I too am a

slave to the scale and if Mr. Scale is NOT my friend (more than a 2

pound gain), I take corrective action right away, and un-incorporate

or boost the exercise. I wish I could do like you and go cold turkey

but I am not brave enough to give them all up.

Something else I noticed is that there is an increase in the volume

of food that I can eat at one meal. Over the months it slowly

increases, so that has to be taken into account. Still no where near

pre-op, and hopefully never will be, but appreciably more than at 6

or 12 months.

Like you, I refuse to be one of those that gained back their weight

and that is why Mr. Scale and I talk daily. I, too, wish I was one of

those who say that they eat all day long and are 20 pounds under

their goal. But most of us are not and never will be. The important

part is that you have found what worked for you and are being very

successful. You go girl! A definite inspiration...

Cindy

lap RNY 2/8/02

> Today it has been 20 months since my lap RNY surgery. Over the

> past 6 months I started getting lax with my food choices and

portion

> sizes. I started to eat more and more sugar and simple

> carbohydrates. It was setting off more & more cravings for sugar.

> The old insanity of obsessing over " when I'd get my next sugar fix "

> had reappeared. I felt hopeless. I had gained 10 lbs. with no stop

> in site. My thinnest pants no longer fit. I felt despair.

> Then I hit a new " bottom " . I realized that even though I was no

> longer morbidly obese (right now), that I still had the underlying

> eating disorder of a compulsive overeater. The surgery, while it

> being a FABULOUS TOOL, did not cure my disease (emotional,

physical,

> & spiritual as described in Overeaters Anonymous). I knew this

> preop that it wasn't a " cure all " but fantasized postop that I

could

> eventually eat " like normal people " , being satisfied with small

> amounts of sweets & junk. At first, it worked. But now, it doesn't!

> So I have realized that my sugar addiction preop is still there

> postop. I returned to OA meetings and feel more at peace now. For

> today, I accept that snacking & desserts set off obsessive and

> compulsive behavior in me. For today, (One Day at a Time), I choose

> to eat 3 healthy meals without desserts.

> Oh how I wish that I was like those of you who can eat moderate

> portions of junk. I AM NOT one of you, and I don't want to prove it

> to myself anymore!!!! I now have 3+ weeks of healthy eating and

> have lost 7 of the 10 lbs. that I gained over the past 3-5 months.

> My obsessive thoughts of sugar and snacking have drastically

> diminished though aren't totally gone.

> Here's my recommendation to early postops: Stay away from

> your " trigger foods " , those foods that you use to binge on. It

> isn't worth it!!!! Trust me on this one! Develope good exercise

> habits beginning preoperatively with walking or water gentle

> aerobics.

> I don't ever want to be morbidly obese again. I've talked to

> others who have gained most of their weight back and I am

determined

> to remain successful with this bypass gift tool that I cherish. It

> has changed my life. I am healthy!!!!

> Suzanne (photog4fun)

> http://geocities.com/now_thin (my story) & (for pictures only)

> click on: http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view?

> p=999 & gid=1796998 & uid=967258

September 29, 2003

There are a few hunks of junk I can do. Frosting. Thank goodness I only like

one kind & I can't buy it, except on a cake and I have a small family whose

b-days are clustered. Whew.

There are some things I cannot touch.

I have a fatal physical disease, probably called insulin resistance, or

Syndrome X, according to my latest article. It'll kill me. It's tried

several times. It's in remission right now. Has been for 9 yrs. EXCEPT

when I got stupid, and it didn't take but a few minutes to undo months of

work.

As long as I do what I did to get where I am (so far), I keep staying where

I got.

Too bad I couldn't have written that in English, but hopefully, you get my

drift.

Thanks,

Vitalady, Inc. T

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20 months postop