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Oh, and BTW....I was over 3 years out before this " stabilization " began. So

...definitely....relax.

Regards~

Jacque

From: Kricket

To: OSSG-Protein

Sent: Tuesday, November 11, 2003 1:28 PM

Subject: Advice Needed from Long Term Post Ops

Had my one year appt yesterday. The surgeon said not to actively try

to lose any more weight. I am " ideal " in his words. 141 at 5'8 " (and

very large frame).

So I am struggling with the suggestion from the nutritionist to " add

500 more calories a day " to stabilize my weight and prevent it from

dropping anymore. Ok, I can't believe that I am saying this, but here

goes " I know I am skinny " (Holy cow it was hard to write that cause

in my heart I don't believe it, but my mind knows it to be true). I

know that what they say has validity. But I don't know if I

am " ready " to transition, so to speak. I have sort of dreaded this

day, cause I knew that the novelty of weight loss would be gone at

some point and here it is. (I now know why they say you " graduate " at

a year out and then the hard work begins, and I really

understand " honeymoon phase " now too. LOL).

So I already know that I will be nixing the suggestion to now start

to add milk to my shakes (the nutritionist actually said that). I

smiled and said " lactose intolerant " ... she says " ok then, add soy

milk " . Again a weak smile from me (big time nix!). I know that they

want me too add snacks but I am having a hard time trying to accept

this.

It has to be said here that my mom is a dxed anorexic and I don't

want to go down that path. I am just really struggling with how

to " stabilize the weight " without giving myself a license to eat or

starting off a flood of cravings. Like I said, I knew this day would

come and would appreciate any advice on how to proceed. I am still

a " fat girl " on the inside and am sorta scared if that makes sense.

Thanks,

Kricket 11-13-02

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