Guest guest Posted October 24, 2003 Report Share Posted October 24, 2003 I have pretty much kept my mouth shut on this issue, because everyone, and their " tool " is different. But, I have to speak up now. WLS IS JUST A TOOL. You cannot fix anything with just one tool in your toolbox. The wise person will put all the tools they need in their tool box to fix any problem. For successful weight loss, with WLS, you need to add the tools of " support, " " supplementation, " and " behavior modification. " Maybe some others, depending on your circumstances. For me, behavior modification was the real monkey wrench in my toolbox. This meant therapy, lots of it, over the last 21+ years. I had to get to the bottom of the issues that made me behave the way I did. I had to learn to eat when I had real hunger, and not head hunger. I had to learn to replace cravings with things that were, if not " good " for me, with things that were at least not detrimental to my goal, and to my health. I had to learn that no one controlled me but me, and no one was putting me in a choke hold and shoving food in my mouth, but me. I had to stop placing blame and making excuses. I had to MAKE MYSELF get out and walk 15 minutes after a meal. And I had to learn to enjoy life to the fullest, take the gifts that God has given me, and be the best person I know how to be. Am I a " know-it-all " ? Probably. Am I successful? YOU BETCHA! And, I'm a lazy person, by nature. If I can do it, you can too. Just use ALL of the tools you have to use. If you don't have all of your tools, start shopping to get them. Jac Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2003 Report Share Posted October 24, 2003 Alice, what a beautiful letter. Yes, you must post more often! in NJ ************************ > Cindy, > > Thank you for your response. You have said so well what many of us have and are experiencing. We have so many years behind us of feeling and believing that we are " no good " ... a failure .. weak- willed ... all the many things and thoughts that get projected on to people who don't fit society's definition of " normal " ... that we incorporate this value system into our own thoughts about our selves. Postive self-esteem becomes almost non-existent. > > I personally believe that the " science of obesity " is still very much in its infancy. Many [too many!!] years ago when I was in college and working on my master's thesis, I had the occasion and opportunity to spend some time doing research at a state " mental hospital. " In the course of my research, I learned of a patient who was 69 years old at the time I met her. She had been committed to the state hospital at age 14 because she had " fits " and had spent the rest of her life there. Her diagnosis was epilepsy!!! And her committal was based on the ignorance of the disease of epilepsy that existed when she was 14 years old. I often feel that the present knowledge of obesity is somewhat similar ... we get committed to a lifetime of ridicule and humiliation ... much of which is based on ignorance. > > But there's an important " positive " here. In the course of dealing with the derision and rejection that we have experienced as " obese " beings, we develop wisdom and compassion for other people [and hopefully, for ourselves!!] far beyond the ordinary. I know it sounds trite, but I have met some of the finest people in my life who were or are obese. No, I am not suggesting that only the obese are wise and compassionate ... no not at all. I don't believe that any of us who have experienced the pain of being obese would wish that on anyone else. What I'm saying is that it has given us the opportunity to " take lemons and make lemonade. " And as we work with the gift of gastric bypass surgery we kind of have to retrace some steps and shore up feelings about ourselves. In the course of this process, and I can speak only for myself, I have had to re-think and re-look at myself and how I " meet " my world. I have come to realize that my weight and how it fluctuates do not define who I am > any more than whether my eyes are blue or brown ... or my hair is blond or jet black. > > I had GBS in November 2001. I lost about 100 pounds.Then I stopped losing and have been swimming upstream just to maintain. I recently found out that I have a staple line disruption and food is leaking from my new stomach into my old stomach allowing me to eat much more food than GBS people can usually eat. I'm scheduled for surgery in January 2004 to repair this. But in the almost year and a half that I've been playing around with the same 5 or 10 pounds, I've really had to face my feelings of being a " failure " ... of somehow believing that once again I've " screwed up " ... the list goes on and on. But in this process, I've also come to make peace with myself ... For the first time in my entire life, I can honestly say I like who I am ... and at my current weight, I am still classified as " morbidly obese " ! > > I'm sorry this is so long ... but I guess what I'm trying to say to anyone out there who might find it helpful ... be kind to yourselves. Who knows why we are fat while others are skinny? And does it really make all the difference our society tells us it does? Are we really " lesser " people because our size was " outside " the norm? And alternatively, are we really " better " people because we're thinner? > > Apart from health issues which are a very important factor for many of us who sought GBS and have had GBS, I think we're like most others walking the planet. We laugh when we're happy and we cry when we're sad! I know that having lost a sustantial amount of weight [with more to go!!] I have felt free-er to discover more about who I really am ... and this is a joyful thing. But learning to love myself ... however and whatever I " look " like ... is the motor that empowers my life. > > I just have such warm feelings for the courageous and kind people who " populate " this group ... and I've never personally met any of you! I tend to be more of a lurker [for almost 3 years now] than a writer ... but I'm trying to change that because I really want to " give back " a little of what I've received. As Dr. Seuss says in one of his books [for children!!] " Be who you are and say what you think because those who matter don't mind and those who mind, don't matter! " > > Thanks for listening! > > ALICE > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2003 Report Share Posted October 24, 2003 I can only say that this is exactly what each of us needs to hear and understand. No matter where we are at on the journey, we all have to deal at some time with these " demons " whether they be food or whatever. Thanks so much for writing this, it spoke to me in a profound way. M > Cindy, > > Thank you for your response. You have said so well what many of us have and are experiencing. We have so many years behind us of feeling and believing that we are " no good " ... a failure .. weak-willed ... all the many things and thoughts that get projected on to people who don't fit society's definition of " normal " ... that we incorporate this value system into our own thoughts about our selves. Postive self-esteem becomes almost non-existent. > > I personally believe that the " science of obesity " is still very much in its infancy. Many [too many!!] years ago when I was in college and working on my master's thesis, I had the occasion and opportunity to spend some time doing research at a state " mental hospital. " In the course of my research, I learned of a patient who was 69 years old at the time I met her. She had been committed to the state hospital at age 14 because she had " fits " and had spent the rest of her life there. Her diagnosis was epilepsy!!! And her committal was based on the ignorance of the disease of epilepsy that existed when she was 14 years old. I often feel that the present knowledge of obesity is somewhat similar ... we get committed to a lifetime of ridicule and humiliation ... much of which is based on ignorance. > > But there's an important " positive " here. In the course of dealing with the derision and rejection that we have experienced as " obese " beings, we develop wisdom and compassion for other people [and hopefully, for ourselves!!] far beyond the ordinary. I know it sounds trite, but I have met some of the finest people in my life who were or are obese. No, I am not suggesting that only the obese are wise and compassionate ... no not at all. I don't believe that any of us who have experienced the pain of being obese would wish that on anyone else. What I'm saying is that it has given us the opportunity to " take lemons and make lemonade. " And as we work with the gift of gastric bypass surgery we kind of have to retrace some steps and shore up feelings about ourselves. In the course of this process, and I can speak only for myself, I have had to re-think and re-look at myself and how I " meet " my world. I have come to realize that my weight and how it fluctuates do not define who I am > any more than whether my eyes are blue or brown ... or my hair is blond or jet black. > > I had GBS in November 2001. I lost about 100 pounds.Then I stopped losing and have been swimming upstream just to maintain. I recently found out that I have a staple line disruption and food is leaking from my new stomach into my old stomach allowing me to eat much more food than GBS people can usually eat. I'm scheduled for surgery in January 2004 to repair this. But in the almost year and a half that I've been playing around with the same 5 or 10 pounds, I've really had to face my feelings of being a " failure " ... of somehow believing that once again I've " screwed up " ... the list goes on and on. But in this process, I've also come to make peace with myself ... For the first time in my entire life, I can honestly say I like who I am ... and at my current weight, I am still classified as " morbidly obese " ! > > I'm sorry this is so long ... but I guess what I'm trying to say to anyone out there who might find it helpful ... be kind to yourselves. Who knows why we are fat while others are skinny? And does it really make all the difference our society tells us it does? Are we really " lesser " people because our size was " outside " the norm? And alternatively, are we really " better " people because we're thinner? > > Apart from health issues which are a very important factor for many of us who sought GBS and have had GBS, I think we're like most others walking the planet. We laugh when we're happy and we cry when we're sad! I know that having lost a sustantial amount of weight [with more to go!!] I have felt free-er to discover more about who I really am .... and this is a joyful thing. But learning to love myself ... however and whatever I " look " like ... is the motor that empowers my life. > > I just have such warm feelings for the courageous and kind people who " populate " this group ... and I've never personally met any of you! I tend to be more of a lurker [for almost 3 years now] than a writer ... but I'm trying to change that because I really want to " give back " a little of what I've received. As Dr. Seuss says in one of his books [for children!!] " Be who you are and say what you think because those who matter don't mind and those who mind, don't matter! " > > Thanks for listening! > > ALICE Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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