i was in a very bad mood.

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i woke up this morning - and i was mad. really really mad. my

cheekbones hurt more than anything has during this entire process. i

was pretty puffy. everytime i bit down into my splint - i hit my

right cheek. i was hungry - but didn't want to eat. i was bored -

but didn't want to read. i was tired - but didn't want to sleep. i

basically was a gigantic mess that would have been whining - but i

couldn't really talk.

my ear keeps doing this crazy pseudo popping thing - you know like

when you can hear through a tunnel for a bit and then it's gone. i'm

on serious antibiotics - so i doubt it's an infection - but i'll call

tomorrow if it's still a problem. i have a gigantic bruise from where

the " A " line was (the one that checks your blood oxygen during

surgery). my hip is still sore. my nose is still stuffy. and where

the hell did my chin go?!? is it possible that by gaining an upper

jaw - i could be chinless??? i started to tear up - and then i got

the yelling from joey about how i shouldn't cry. wtf???? i can't

scream - i can't cry. what else?!?

i ate some breakfast. sat around. ate some lunch (mac and cheese -

well a little because it just takes so long and then an ensure). took

a shower. and then took a good long nap. i woke up and realized i

don't hate everyone and everything like i did before. that i can

actually see a nasal passage in my left nostril - something i couldn't

do for like 10 years.

i didn't want to write about this before because i've been trying to

stay upbeat - especially for the preop people. but being on the other

side of my funk - i just wanted to say that a funk may come - but it

eventually will go ) i'm going to owe joey big time for this )

maybe tomorrow i'll go see star wars. or mr. and mrs smith. i'm not

sure. but i hope more than anything that i'll soon see my chin!!!

-becky