Guest guest Posted September 29, 2003 Report Share Posted September 29, 2003 Today it has been 20 months since my lap RNY surgery. Over the past 6 months I started getting lax with my food choices and portion sizes. I started to eat more and more sugar and simple carbohydrates. It was setting off more & more cravings for sugar. The old insanity of obsessing over " when I'd get my next sugar fix " had reappeared. I felt hopeless. I had gained 10 lbs. with no stop in site. My thinnest pants no longer fit. I felt despair. Then I hit a new " bottom " . I realized that even though I was no longer morbidly obese (right now), that I still had the underlying eating disorder of a compulsive overeater. The surgery, while it being a FABULOUS TOOL, did not cure my disease (emotional, physical, & spiritual as described in Overeaters Anonymous). I knew this preop that it wasn't a " cure all " but fantasized postop that I could eventually eat " like normal people " , being satisfied with small amounts of sweets & junk. At first, it worked. But now, it doesn't! So I have realized that my sugar addiction preop is still there postop. I returned to OA meetings and feel more at peace now. For today, I accept that snacking & desserts set off obsessive and compulsive behavior in me. For today, (One Day at a Time), I choose to eat 3 healthy meals without desserts. Oh how I wish that I was like those of you who can eat moderate portions of junk. I AM NOT one of you, and I don't want to prove it to myself anymore!!!! I now have 3+ weeks of healthy eating and have lost 7 of the 10 lbs. that I gained over the past 3-5 months. My obsessive thoughts of sugar and snacking have drastically diminished though aren't totally gone. Here's my recommendation to early postops: Stay away from your " trigger foods " , those foods that you use to binge on. It isn't worth it!!!! Trust me on this one! Develope good exercise habits beginning preoperatively with walking or water gentle aerobics. I don't ever want to be morbidly obese again. I've talked to others who have gained most of their weight back and I am determined to remain successful with this bypass gift tool that I cherish. It has changed my life. I am healthy!!!! Suzanne (photog4fun) http://geocities.com/now_thin (my story) & (for pictures only) click on: http://www.picturetrail.com/gallery/view? p=999 & gid=1796998 & uid=967258 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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