I just wanna cry

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Well I could just cry. Or maybe throw something. I posted pics from

today under Plagio babies J title Jayden right now. They are pics I

took of him in the bath today. The sight of his head makes me cry. It

looks terrible. It doesnt even look like he's had a helmet on!!!! In

fact before he was just severely bracy at 95%. Now he looks as if

there is some plagio going on too on one side. I left a message

Thursday and Friday for the ortho at Hanger. I guess they just moved

to a new office so I hope to hear from them tomorrow. Ladies I just

want to lose it!!! I have dealt with family telling me what an awful

mom I am for subjecting my son to the helmet. All the blisters,

sores, boils and staph infections. He finally has stopped getting

them and has had a month of wear with no issues, but I look at his

head and I can tell without any measurements he has stayed the same

if not gotten worse. Even if I could get to CT, I literally have $0

to pay out of pocket. I feel like the ortho office I'm working with

isnt as professional as they should be as they even went as far as to

email me through this board. I had never given them my email address.

They just recognized me through my posts. I know this is the internet

and I havent posted anything to be rude to the Ortho I simply shared

what Jayden went through. Should I ask that a new helmet be made

being that his head looks so terrible and he hasnt gotten any

correction? I can tell he's still severe. His head looks wider than

it is long. ANd just his pics alone I'm sure you can all feel my

pain. I feel like an awful mom for not getting treatment prior to 7

months because the neuro surgeon we first saw said no one in colorado

did helmets. I feel like a bad mom for putting my son down enough to

even cause this. My daughter never had this issue. I blame the swing

that goes from side to side. He loved that thing as a tiny baby.

Someone please just give me some guidance. Is it even worth trying to

see the same clinic at this point being that they made me feel so

uncomfortable by contacting off this message board? If its not worth

it am I entitled to be refunded the money that I paid for the

deductible??? I feel sick right now having jut looked at my sons

pics. There really isnt any other good ortho's in colorado. I have

researched and researched and the only other name I could come up

with was a Greg Smits and the few parents who went with him said it

wasnt worth it and that he lacked experience. I'm running out of

correction time here.