Sara

[Guest guest]

Sara,

Here comes caboose to the rescue!! I am tearing that brick wall

down for you!

I can only imagine the frustration you must be feeling right about

now after having the hopes of tearing into those scrambled eggs. I

had hopes the other day of tearing into a big cheeseburger and gave

up after all the bread got caked to every single hook I had. My

buddy I was eating with tore up her cheeseburger in 5 minutes and

after 25 minutes I was still trying to nip away at mine. ARGHHH!!

I just gave up and said this is just all craziness! After reading

this 4 page consent form my OS gave me yesterday to sign, I am

wondering what the heck have I gotten myself into? All the possible

complications from this surgery is enough to scare me to death!

I know there is light at the end of the tunnel, and you are almost

there! Tomorrow will be a better day, so hang in there! I am

sending you big hugs to get you through the day!

the tiger!

> So today was meant to be my first day on soft foods. I still have

my

> splint in but I am on much less tight elastics so my doctor told

me I

> could have pasta, scrambled eggs, mashed potatoes and the like. So

> there I am at lunchtime preparing one of my all time favorites,

> scrambled eggs with melted mozzarella cheese. And I'm so happy

> because I have been looking forward to this day for so long. Then

I

> sit down and try to eat the food and I CAN'T. I couldn't get the

> spoon into my mouth because my mouth wouldn't open wide enough and

I

> was using the tiniest of baby spoons. So discouraging. The thing

is

> with soup all I had to do was poke that spoon in a bit and then I

> could suck in the soup into my mouth and swallow. Well when I

tried

> doing that with the scrambled eggs (that were also slightly

> blenderized) I nearly choked myself. And then before I knew it the

> tears started to well up inside of me and I started crying. I have

> never cried as much in my whole life as I have been crying over

the

> past 10 days and I'm starting to get really sick of it. Today was

the

> worst because I didn't even feel better after I had my cry. I just

> felt so frustrated. I CAN'T FEED MYSELF. I have never felt so

> hopeless. I know I'm being overly dramatic and that eventually

I'll

> be able to open my jaw wider and wider but right now I just feel

that

> I'm stuck with this jaw that doesn't open much and I feel

horrible.

> Plus, to top it off as my swelling is going down my face seems

longer

> and longer to me and I don't like it one bit. I hate being so

> ungrateful and unaccepting. I've tried to keep a really positive

> attitude throughout this whole process because I know it's key to

a

> good recovery but today I just can't do it. My brick wall is

sitting

> right in front of me and I'm trying to figure out how to get over

it.

> For now I've totally lost my appetite.

>

> Sorry to be such a miserable poster today guys but I just feel so

> sad. I know it will pass soon. Thanks for listening.

>

> Sara