questioning my sanity!!!

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Hey y'all! My surgery (lower advancement and upper tweeking) is

scheduled for 08/08/2005. This is the thing...I really think I must

have been out of my mind to agree even to start this process!!

There is no guaranty that it will help with my TMJ problems, and I'm

really afraid that because of my prominent chin I'm gonna end up

looking like I have an underbite! Not to mention the whole awful

recovery process, the upsest and complications to my already too

busy schedule! I'm self-employed, so if I don't work, I don't get

paid. I was planning to take off two weeks per my OS instructions,

but that's gonna cost me alot of money (and no the work won't be

there when I get back, it can't wait on me). And yesterday, I got

two pieces of information that further complicated things. It turns

out that it takes BC/BS 30 to 60 days to give approval for

coverage! That means I probably won't have that until the end of

August!! I was already cutting things really close to the start of

school, as my daughter goes back to school on August 15. Her school

is 30 miles from our home, and I'm the one who takes her and picks

her up. (It's a private christian school and it's so worth the

extra effort.) It would be almost impossible to do this during the

school year. The second thing is that my husband will be going on

overtime for the next four weeks, or more, because of a special

project that just came up. He's the boss, so he can't possibly take

a week off to care for me like we had planned. Anyway, I'm just

sick of the whole mess! My best friend says if it were her, she

wouldn't do it. It does seem like a lot of cure for a problem that

just comes up periodically, albeit VERY PAINFUL when it flares up.

I'm just sick of the whole mess! I dread telling my OD that I've

changed my mind, because he made it very clear that if I weren't

willing to have surgery I shouldn't even get the braces, and I

agreed to do it. Help!!! I don't know what to do!!!

Angel