Does it ever get easier?

[Guest guest]

Or maybe I should ask, Does it ever stop getting harder?

(** no snickering **)

I'm 17 months post-op and have been mostly lurking in these parts,

but I've noticed that it is harder and harder for me to stick to my

good post-op eating habits. I haven't regained anything (yet),

largely because I keep clambering up on the danged horse, but I'm

looking more and more disheveled each time now. I figured, I'd just

learn to handle the occasional " rough patch " of bad eating now and

then, as " normal " people do (don't they? ... ), but the rough patches

are coming more and more often, and frankly, they're not really all

that rough; truth is, I'm just wantin' junk food way too much.

I've read the sage advice on how to detox from carbs and sugars (and

yes, I'm still doing my protein shakes). I'm doing my best to follow

it, but am annoyed with myself that it's come to that already and am,

of course, absolutely terrified of regaining everything, like I

always did as a pre-op. Unlike many of the brave souls here,

sometimes, when I fall off the horse, I just wander off the farm and

don't even try to return. I feel the odds of that happening are

really growing lately.

For you longer-term post-ops, does this ever get easier? Does it

keep getting harder? Do you just finally have a day where you accept

you'll have screamin' head hunger demons, off 'n on, forever? What

do you tell the little buggers to get 'em to shaddup? I hear their

cries even under all that protein I've been burying them under, and

now they even whisper in my ear when I'm jogging on the treadmill.

Used to be, they weren't with me *all* the time. Now, they are.

Help! (Going under, for the first time ....)

Suzy C.

Age 45

RNY 5/30/02

268/130

(and oh yeah ... startin' menopause now, too.

Go Ahead, Make My Day. ;-D)