Day Shattered

[Guest guest]

Well I had posted yesterday that I was counting down my days to my

surgery which I was at 11 days, well my day was shattered when the

Clinic call me at 8am this morning (July 26, 2004) and told me that

once again my psyc evaluation have been cancelled. I couldn't do

nothing but cry now I am afraid of having the surgery because I am

now thinking that maybe my exams are being cancelled for reasons, so

now I am having second thoughts about the surgery. However, my

sister call the clinic and they going to try and get me an

appointment for tomorrow.

Like I told the receptionist at the clinic they are not paying my

bills for me and as long as this surgery is pending no one will hire

me because I have had two job offers and I had to tell them I am

having the surgery so then they say well we going to keep your

resume on file, and how long will it take you to heal. I say this to

say this I was laid off from a job because of my weight and I know

it was my weight. I feel my weight is keep me from getting a job,

becaue as long as I talk with the company I am applying for the job

over the phone they talking all good and stuff then they say well

come in and bring your resume and then when I get there I get well

we are not hiring I just needed to put a face with the phone call or

the application. I am so depress today and I am sorry that this has

been a long post.