Wow, count me in as another hit the wall today:-(

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Hi guys,

Just wanting to vent. I'm having a depressing day today. I'm just

really moody and having issues. First the good news, my swelling has

gone down alot over the last day or so, not nearly gone, but it's

good enough to dare to put some lipstick on:-). Also, I'm starting

to look like " myself " again. (a better myself, but still myself,

which is comforting).

Now....the whiny part. I'm having trouble breathing again out of my

left nostril. I know that I'm supposed to be congested, but this is

getting ridiculous. I have a sneaking suspicion that my surgeon was

conservative in " bumping " my septum back into place and he really

should have taken some cartlidge out because (okay, I know this is

gross, but I had to do it) I can actually feel a bow in it with my

finger, like it's trying to be straight, and it fits on the top and

bottom but not in the middle, kinda like this .(. Also, I can breathe

quite a bit easier if I kind of hold my nostril open, but I can't go

around doing that all day!!! And when I breathe, the right nostril

goes in like a normal nostril does, but the left one just sits there

all tight. The nasal sprays aren't working anymore either, I think

my septum may be slowly reverting. My DH tells me to call the

surgeon on Monday, but I feel like I'm doubting him if I call, like

I'm being a pest. Plus I have an appt on Wed. to see him. I don't

want to have to get this re-done, I'm so sick of surgeries right

now. I just want to cry :-(.

Then there's the whole I can't close my lips without straining thing

still. I have about 3 mm to go, and my upper lip has alot of

swelling still and I can't move it much, so I'm hoping beyond hope

that they will come together eventually. Granted, it's a huge

improvement, so I shouldn't complain.

And along that lines, I'm so sick of not being able to kiss my

husband! I can't even manage a pucker right now even if I could feel

it.

And I'm hungry darn it! I did have some KFC mashed potatoes and

gravy today with a biscuit crumbled in gravy for dinner, and that was

really good, but I really miss chewing. Also, I'm breaking out big

time, and I thought I got lucky and missed it because I didn't start

breaking out right after surgery like I expected. I've got more acne

than a teenager right now!

If you've made it this far to read all this, thanks!, I know I've

written a novel. I'm trying to keep positive, and I've done such a

good job of it so far, but today was just too much for me to handle.

Maybe its all the stress of going back to work this past week, being

exhausted, or the not eating enough, I don't know. I'm just glad I

have people who can relate to what I'm going through.

Thanks for listening,