Weight regain/Beth

[Guest guest]

Beth,

Boy, you really made me stop and think and I really thank you for that. I have

been living with blinders on for several months now. It is almost like if I

don't acknowledge a problem it doesn't exist. Does this make sense? I mean I

have been seeing the gain all along. I have to go to the doctor frequently and

get weighed most every time I go. At first my rebound was about 10 pounds and I

wasn't concerned. At 20 pounds I thought, oooh, I'd better watch this. But,

honestly, I did look better at 200 pounds and would love to see that again.

Mainly, old habits are creeping back in. They came back slowly so I didn't

" notice " that too. I did but the blinders are still there. I stopped

exercising when I had my second set of plastic surgeries late 2001. I would go

out and walk maybe once every 10 days or so. Now I don't even do that and I

guess if there is one habit I would change right away it would be to get my butt

in gear. I have got the worst case of butt-be-back there is. I mean I am a

wide-bottomed pear.

The second big no-no is drinking with meals. I got soooo lax with that. And I

haven't been supplementing with protein like I used to. Sometimes, because of

stress from being out of work and because I am home all the time, I find myself

grazing all day long. You see, Beth, your question really made me think and I

can identify all of these things.

I have been told that Depo shots can cause weight gain. I started those in

January to try to get a handle on the period I was getting every two weeks since

about June 2000. My last cycle was in late April so it worked but one of the

side effects is weight gain. I have gained 15 pounds since I started the shots.

Mostly my fault I'm sure but it makes you think.

I am in the process of trying to see my endocrinologist (who was in charge of my

medical care post-surgery) before the end of the month when I lose my insurance.

Maybe we will find something there but I am not holding my breath.

Did this answer your questions? I hope so but if I missed something just let me

know. Thanks Beth for making me think. By the way, you are doing an awesome

job. Your stats are amazing!

Rinn

I currently weigh about 225 and am afraid to get on the scale.

Your struggle scares me to death and probably does to a lot of us on

the list. The fear that it will " come back. " Can you help us learn about how

it happens? I understand the basic thermodynamics of it, obviously, more

calories are going in than the body is burning for fuel. And I know that bad

habits, a bit of this, a little more of that, etc. are likely culprits. What

I'm trying to figure out is how it goes from 5 pounds gained to 45 pounds.

Please don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to be critical of you at all and don't

want to compound your feelings of distress over this gain. You mention that you

don't want to get on the scale. Is that a new experience for you, were you

weighing all along and watching the gain? Or was weighing not part of your

routine? When you found that you had regained " some " weight were you actively

working on trying to get rid of it, or was it something that you accepted and

decided was not significant enough to worry about?

I suppose where I'm at is trying to convince myself that this is

something that I can control in myself; that I won't just wake up one day and

find that I have gained significant weight. I worry about this daily. I talk

about it with my shrink. Hell, every time I see the guy I tell him how much I

weigh! I jokingly refer to it as the " weight report. " I weigh myself every

morning and when the number is up more than 3 pounds I try to walk the straight

and narrow until it is back down again. I have it in my head that the day I

don't get on the scale will be the beginning of the end.

I know that I'm rambling here, and making this more about me than

helping you with your concerns, and for that, I apologize.

Please share with me / us you insights. I know that everyone here

wants to help you, but like me, most of us would rather not to have to walk in

your shoes.

Beth

Houston, TX

VBG - Dr. Srungaram

05/31/00 - 314 lbs.

11/01/02 - Abdominoplasty

11/29/02 - 160 lbs.

5'10 "