Re: Am I really Fat?

[Guest guest]

Well....Am I fat....well yes but not like before....I cant speak for others but

pre-op I would only glance at the mirror as in.....Hair combed Check. Clothes

properly buttoned check. Same color socks check....But really look at myself in

a mirror HELLS no...Of course I am making up for lost time with a new found

fascination with myself....While " I can not see " my weight loss...on a

subconscious level I like what I see because I am addicted to the mirror...I

love to look at myself...I am constantly checking out how my clothes fit....I

feel like the guy in the greek myth who drowns in a pool of water while looking

at himself....I guess going through the extremes is normal....I wonder what I

will be like when I get to goal weight!

Lisbeth

evershade1@... wrote: Heck yes. However, I really didn't believe that what

I saw in the

mirror was morbidly obese. It was only when I started to feel the

pinch in movie theater seats, and couldn't find clothes that fit at

Lane that I figured out I was truely off the charts. My

denial must have been powerful. Thinking about it, I believe I made

a conscious effort not to really look close at my body. When ever I

sat on the " throne " I would look up, instead of down at my fat

rolls. But I do remember looking at myself in the mirror, and just

thinking...well, not too bad. I'm just wondering if this is part of

the morbid obesity experience.

Chris

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[Guest guest]

Unfortunately, yes. Additionally, when we lose weight, we still tend to see

a fat person in the mirror. Weird, huh? When fat, we see a thinner person

in the mirror, and when thin, we see a fatter person. No wonder I'm going

to need to see a shrink post-op!!!

~alyssa

2.5 weeks til surgery...

Am I really Fat?

> thinking...well, not too bad. I'm just wondering if this is part of

> the morbid obesity experience.

[Guest guest]

I recently saw a MO gentleman who looked quite large to me. I asked my wife

if I ever looked that big. She told me that I was bigger! I couldn't

believe it.

I still feel huge but we do get constant feedback on our size change, like

fitting where we never fit before, new clothes, tossing the seatbelt

extender, less pain as we move about, etc.

I gave a jacket to a friend, who isn't very large compared to me. It no

longer fit me but it now fits him. That sure doesn't fit my mindset,

though.

Still, it is hard to lose that perception that we are as huge as we were.

Best-

Nick

[Guest guest]

Nick,

I know we humans will never understand this whole body perception

thing, either from within or from the outside.

A friend once told me that she wasn't sure if I was still with my

then-boyfriend (now-husband) because she'd heard second-hand that

someone else had seen him with a H-U-G-E woman. Further discussion

revealed that the huge woman being described was actually me, but she

was kinda of shocked because she'd never thought of me as " huge " .

Now, I think of myself as huge. Apparently, somebody else does to,

but she didn't and my husband doesn't. I just shake my head...

maria

At 10:29 AM -0800 12/1/01, Nick wrote:

>I recently saw a MO gentleman who looked quite large to me. I asked my wife

>if I ever looked that big. She told me that I was bigger! I couldn't

>believe it.

[Guest guest]

I am 5'1 and was 307 pre-op. I am 4 months post-op and am now 232.

I still wear the same clothes, which are now baggy on me and go

through phases of highs and lows.

There are days when I feel like a size 6. I stare at myself in the

mirror, wear make-up and perfume...I walk taller and feel so

confident and would swear that all eyes were on me.

Then I hit lows when I think that nothing has changed and I am still

the butterball I once was. This is mainly due to the fact that only

1 person has noticed my weight loss. This is kinda good b/c I have

kept the surgery a secret from everyone at school, but also kind of

depressing b/c it means that 75lbs of fat (about 40% of my excess

weight) doesn't make a difference in how I look. I fear that I will

reach goal and still " look " fat.

I haven't seen my family or surgeon since late August. I have been

keeping them up-to-date on my weightloss, but I am afraid that they

will expect to see a skinny girl at Christmas. I feel paranoid that

they will think I was lying about my loss.

This whole weight thing is so crazy. I have always dealt with seeing

distorted images of myself. I agree with the person who said that

when you're bigger you think you look smaller and vice versa. The

weird thing is that now I am flip-flopping between seeing two totally

different images of myself.

[Guest guest]

Me too.. I have that same problem... only when I look at the pics

from my preop appt do I realize that I do look better. My attitude,

my outlook, my baggy clothes. Its not up to other people to notice

my weight loss or to comment about it. Its up to me to realize what

I did made me a healthier, happier person and I will take that any

day. Good luck with your self image.. it'll catch up .. )

love,

Sue

post op 9/11/01

Dr. Warden

Ocean Sps, MS

> I am 5'1 and was 307 pre-op. I am 4 months post-op and am now

232.

> I still wear the same clothes, which are now baggy on me and go

> through phases of highs and lows.

>

> There are days when I feel like a size 6. I stare at myself in the

> mirror, wear make-up and perfume...I walk taller and feel so

> confident and would swear that all eyes were on me.

>

> Then I hit lows when I think that nothing has changed and I am

still

> the butterball I once was. This is mainly due to the fact that

only

> 1 person has noticed my weight loss. This is kinda good b/c I have

> kept the surgery a secret from everyone at school, but also kind of

> depressing b/c it means that 75lbs of fat (about 40% of my excess

> weight) doesn't make a difference in how I look. I fear that I

will

> reach goal and still " look " fat.

>

> I haven't seen my family or surgeon since late August. I have been

> keeping them up-to-date on my weightloss, but I am afraid that they

> will expect to see a skinny girl at Christmas. I feel paranoid

that

> they will think I was lying about my loss.

>

> This whole weight thing is so crazy. I have always dealt with

seeing

> distorted images of myself. I agree with the person who said that

> when you're bigger you think you look smaller and vice versa. The

> weird thing is that now I am flip-flopping between seeing two

totally

> different images of myself.

[Guest guest]

Hello to all pre & post-ops. I don't get to the site much anymore,

this seems to be true of alot of post-ops.

" Alyssa " wrote:

> Unfortunately, yes. Additionally, when we lose weight, we still

tend to see

> a fat person in the mirror. Weird, huh? When fat, we see a

thinner person

> in the mirror, and when thin, we see a fatter person. No wonder

I'm going

This post got my attention. Pre-op I truly did not see myself as FAT

as I really was. I look back now and am amazed at how our minds cope

with such things. Had I seen myself in the light of reality I may

have never ventured out my front door to the doctors office!!

My view post-op though differs from what Alyssa anticipates, and even

my past history. I am 12 months post-op DS revision. pre-op 297+,

to date 163lbs !! When I look in the mirror, for the first time in

my entire life, I like what I see!! I actually " check " myself out,

because I can't believe the drastic changes in my body. No, it is

not perfect. I have some sagging where the skin didn't draw up as

much as I would have liked. But, to look in the mirror and not

despise what you see is an experience I hope all pre-op's get to

experience!!

Pre-op I would practically get in the shower dressed to avoid having

my hubby see me naked! Now I am comfortable walking around in the

nude!

Good luck to all having surgery this month!!!

************MERRY CHRISTMAS***************

Mileah

12/04/00 Dr. Kim /Dr. Booth DS Revision surgery #3 (3rd times a charm)

Ocean Springs Hospital

+135 lbs GONE, GONE, GONE

> to need to see a shrink post-op!!!

>

> ~alyssa

> 2.5 weeks til surgery...

> Am I really Fat?

>

>

> > thinking...well, not too bad. I'm just wondering if this is part

of

> > the morbid obesity experience.