Can anyone relate to this?

December 11, 2001

Why is it that I am getting so sick and tired of people complimenting

me on my weight loss. I feel so bad when someone asks me how I did

it and I reply that I eat less. I don't want to discuss surgery

openly at work (at least for now). I especially don't feel like

explaining the whole thing to normal weight people that don't

understand what it is like to be MO. I feel guilty when people

compliment me as if I cheated. I know that this wasn't easy and I

still struggle with it, but I feel as if people would judge me poorly

if they knew the truth. I am also getting so tired of people I don't

even know at work coming up to me and saying something about my

loss. I work in a big place with thousands of people in the

facility. Every day someone makes mention of my weight loss. Today

it started with one of the cooks in our cafeteria and there were

about 5 others since then. Why do people think it is OK to talk to

me now that I am *normal* and they never did when I was obese? Why

don't I feel so different? People keep saying that I must feel

great, but I still feel like the same person. Sure I can do more

things with less or no pain, but inside I am still the same. Well, I

guess since I had my guts rearranged I am not the same inside

either. I think this kind of reminds me of when I was at the end of

my pregnancies and I was constantly being asked about the baby.

Perfect strangers in stores asking me all kinds of personal

questions. I know people were only trying to be nice, as they are

now, but I sure get tired of having the same conversation all day,

every day. Especially with people that have never been MO.

Kathy M. - happy with my results, but sick of talking about it to

everyone

DS 7/19/01

213 pre-op

135 today

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