Warning: Rant Ahead (mixed signals aplenty)

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Hi, all.

I am really irked right now, so please bear with me...

As you may recall, I had my initial consultation with

Dr. Gagner at Mt. Sinai on 11/28. His gut feeling (no

pun intended- ha) was that I was a better candidate

for the RNY surgery, because of my BMI (which is 39).

After I told him that I had just recently lost about

12 pounds on my own steam, he recalculated my BMI to

include the lost weight, and it came out to be 40. So

he agreed to do the BPD/DS. I was relieved, because

RNY just ain't my speed. (In fact, and check this

out, Dr. Gagner suggested that I 'put a few of those

lost pounds back' so he could feel more comfortable

performing the surgery on me. Go figure!)

Anyhoo, so today I had my phone consultation with the

nutritionist, who was certainly very nice. She also

kept saying about 6.02x10^23 times that I should be

getting the RNY instead of the BPD/DS. She said,

" judging by the foods you eat, your lifestyle and your

current BMI, I really think, and I'm telling you this

woman to woman, that the RNY is better for you. The

BPD/DS is just overkill for you, and there's no sense

undergoing such a hugely drastic, risky surgery if you

only need to lose 100 pounds. "

The thing that gets me is " only need to lose 100

pounds. " I know many BPD/DS folks had significantly

more to lose than " only 100 pounds, " but frikkin'-A,

100 pounds certainly seems pretty major to me. Argh!

My mother is 150 pounds overweight, and I know I'm

headed in that direction, pronto.

As if I'm not scared enough out of my gourd as it is,

now I need yet *another* person trying to talk me out

of BPD/DS. Sometimes I think I should just say screw

it and just bail out of this whole idea, and just take

up jogging (like I've never tried THAT before).

Ugh. I'm just so irked.

So then the nutritionist said, " So, I'm gonna go tell

Dr. Gagner that I feel that you should have the RNY

instead. " And I said, " Whoa, whoa, whoa, how about we

stick to the original game plan, sister? " (okay,

maybe that's a little paraphrased...)

So, on one hand, I want to take her professional

advice, because I understand she must know more than

me about it. But on the other hand, do I want to be a

one-tablespoon-of-food-in-one-sitting-barfing-dumping

freako for all eternity? I want as much normalcy as

getting your guts rearranged can allow. Am I asking

too much here? (Feel free to tell me " Yes,

stupid-head, you ask too much! " )

Not for nuthin', but my cousin had RNY 8 years ago and

while she did lose a significant amount of weight,

it's crept back on now, and even *she* wants to her

her RNY re-done to a BPD/DS. She's a nurse, she

know's what's what.

So that's my dilemma for the day.

I don't even know what anyone can say to make me feel

better. I'm just annoyed. So feel free to ignore

this.

Blargh blargh blargh blargh blargh!

Thanks for listening to me vent. I promise my future

posts will have 61% more jocularity.

Smooches,

nne

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