Re: fears and lessons

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In a message dated 11/17/01 7:55:16 PM Eastern Standard Time,

duodenalswitch writes:

<< And that whether the outcome was good or bad(and I always knew

it would be good, though I too had the same normal feelings you're

having now), it was all part of a lesson I'm here to learn.

>>

That is a fantastic way to look at all of this and helps extremely in the

understanding of it all. I thank you so much, !

" that somehow, I had put my life on

hold. And deserved more. I knew that I was not living the life that I

could or should, and that this surgery would open the door that would

lead me to the path to be that person, and have that life. "

Same here - I am not debilitated by my MO, but I am sure if I let it go on, I

will be and it won't be long...........and I know I pretty much am a stick in

the mud stay at home type person due to being MO. I also know that I face

much discrimination, whether I realize it or not at the time........such as

in going for job interviews and not getting the job , meeting men and not

getting dates, etc.

- your answers have helped me, too, as I am going for surgery Dec.

18th (one month from today!!) and I have the same fears as .

And - thanks to you for having the courage to ask this question!

I am taking each day one day at a time, just doing what I need to do for

daily life and getting ready for the surgery. I know I will be scared all

the way up to going into OR and even after, when waking up (hopefully!) and

while in the hospital, but I have insurance approval and the opportunity to

do this NOW and I am afraid if I don't do it NOW, I might pass by the chance

- it may never come again. That is one of the biggest lessons I have learned

in my life as I get older. When you are young, you always think that fork in

the road will come again and the choice you didn't take will present itself

again,but it almost always doesn't. You have to grab what you want when the

opportunity comes.

Who knows what changes in our lives will come as a result of having the

courage to do this......maybe going back to school, as some have done, career

changes, new relationships, etc. But if I don't take this chance, I know

things will stay the way they are, and the way they are for me right now, is

a less than full life.

Carole