I was analysing my son's first year....

January 6, 2004

hi all

lately when I go to bed try to sleep and my insonia come to bother

me I think about how this last year was. My son will be 1 year on

friday and we heard of a possible cf after his surgery the day he

was born and took that blind doctors more than 1 month to accept his

CF. But ok....he has been treat well after that and the only bad flu?

cold he had was when he got home and everybody got sick here at

home..the cf doctor was not sure he had RSV or what...he was ok

after some weeks...the whole year he just had 2 more really mild

colds. and anything else...Now I realise that i dind't got angry,

depressed ( my dear husband makes me angry and depressed

enough... )...I didn't feel guilt or blame no one...I didn't

feel sorry for our luck ...I just accept it...and belive it is going

to make me grown and that is the meaning of

everything...wisdom...the thing is...I am worried if I will still

feel this way later...or I am denying some feelings and I don't even

notice...and now I am writing crazy thoughts...ok...stop... breath...

Anyway...I am so exited about his birthday...I have no idea of what

to do...it seems like all my husband's family is sick w/ some kinda

of cold or flu. I was thinking about a cake and ballons ( I like

ballons) and brigadeiro...one day out of my diet.

well...I just wanted to say hi to everybody and lost myself in my

thoughts...

love

val

January 6, 2004

Happy Birthday to your son. Every birthday is a milestone. We give thanks

for the good days and forget the bad days. The first birthday is a big one.

If your family is still sick on his birthday, postpone it to a different

day. He has no idea what day he was born on or when you celebrate,

especially as little as he is. This won't work when he gets older. It is

fun to watch how excited they get about opening presents and hands full of

cake. Have fun planning his birthday. I think balloons and cake sound

wonderful.

Look to the new year!

Tina W., mother of , 18yo wcf