Re: what I am feeling now while in the hospital

[Guest guest]

If they look at me as if I were really sick when I am in the hospital, I

KNOW things

are rough, as I usually look positively radiant if I run a fever, otherwise,

rather

light olive-skinned, which is enough to make anyone look rather unwell. I

usually

am cowardly when really ill: brush teeth, bathe, etc. brush hair without

even looking

to see if that is really ME in the mirror--until I have gotten a bit

better--I do hope

that you are on the mend--we are all pulling for you--get your brother in

there to

cheer you up! Lots of love, n Rojas, wcf, in Oakland, California

what I am feeling now while in the hospital

Thank you for saying I'm pretty. I don't feel so pretty right now

though. I hate the way people look at you when you're sick. Sometimes

that bothers me more than being sick in the first place. Is that

crazy? I am one of those people for whom looks matter so much, and

total independance. And I know that is not always the best thing,

especially in the eyes of a disease like CF, but I think about it a

lot. And it bothers me so much. It kills me sometimes, and then I

feel guilty that I care about something so shallow when I am having

trouble breathing. when my friends come and visit and they are all

made up and look and feel so great I feel so badly. then I feel badly

that I feel badly - it's strange.

Natalia

On Tuesday, January 6, 2004, at 12:27 AM, danieleverettharris wrote:

> Natalia,

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> You are really pretty!

>

> Gale

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> > Here's me. Some pictures from the past few years.

> >

> > http://photos.yahoo.com/nboguslawska

> >

> > I know the ones that I sent before did not make it anywhere. So

> keep

> > yours coming , I want to see your faces.

> > Today has been a great day. I have been off of oxygen for the

> better

> > part today. Still have a long way to go, but today some prayers

> were

> > answered. Small steps.

> >

> > Natalia

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> PLEASE CONSULT YOUR PHYSICIAN BEFORE CHANGING ANY MEDICATIONS OR

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[Guest guest]

You are not shallow, you are human(and a very cute one). Since I

have told several embarrassing stories about my self, I will share

with you my glamorous hospital story. I hope it can make you feel a

little better. Zach was due in April but on a cold February morning

my water broke, so at 5am I take off for an hour drive to the

hospital. My husband was 4 hours away on business. I left without

showering, brushing my teeth, or anything else.

After I was admitted, my whole family and my husband's family came

to the hospital. There I was hairy legs, bad breath, body odor,

frizzy hair and a catheder hanging from my side. I was gorgeous! To

top it off, I met my future brother-in-law that day. What a great

first impression. Of course I was worried about Zach, but I have to

admit I was worried about how I looked. I am only human.

Sara

> > > Here's me.  Some pictures from the past few years.

> > >

> > > http://photos.yahoo.com/nboguslawska

> > >

> > > I know the ones that I sent before did not make it anywhere. 

So

> > keep

> > > yours coming , I want to see your faces.

> > > Today has been a great day.  I have been off of oxygen for the

> > better

> > > part today.  Still have a long way to go, but today some

prayers

> > were

> > > answered.  Small steps.

> > >

> > > Natalia

> >

> >

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> > The opinions and information exchanged on this list should IN NO

WAY

> > be construed as medical advice.

> >

> > PLEASE CONSULT YOUR PHYSICIAN BEFORE CHANGING ANY MEDICATIONS OR

> > TREATMENTS.

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[Guest guest]

Natalia,

Well... I'm sure that you look better on your worse day than I do on

my best day!

Gale

> > > > > Here's me.  Some pictures from the past few years.

> > > > >

> > > > > http://photos.yahoo.com/nboguslawska

> > > > >

> > > > > I know the ones that I sent before did not make it

anywhere. 

> > So

> > > > keep

> > > > > yours coming , I want to see your faces.

> > > > > Today has been a great day.  I have been off of oxygen for

the

> > > > better

> > > > > part today.  Still have a long way to go, but today some

> > prayers

> > > > were

> > > > > answered.  Small steps.

> > > > >

> > > > > Natalia

> > > >

> > > >

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> > > > The opinions and information exchanged on this list should IN

NO

> > WAY

> > > > be construed as medical advice.

> > > >

> > > > PLEASE CONSULT YOUR PHYSICIAN BEFORE CHANGING ANY MEDICATIONS

OR

> > > > TREATMENTS.

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[Guest guest]

Glad you liked it. If I can think of any other stories to give you

a lift I will be sure to post them.

Sara

> > > > > Here's me.  Some pictures from the past few years.

> > > > >

> > > > > http://photos.yahoo.com/nboguslawska

> > > > >

> > > > > I know the ones that I sent before did not make it

anywhere. 

> > So

> > > > keep

> > > > > yours coming , I want to see your faces.

> > > > > Today has been a great day.  I have been off of oxygen for

the

> > > > better

> > > > > part today.  Still have a long way to go, but today some

> > prayers

> > > > were

> > > > > answered.  Small steps.

> > > > >

> > > > > Natalia

> > > >

> > > >

> > > >

> > > > -------------------------------------------

> > > > The opinions and information exchanged on this list should

IN NO

> > WAY

> > > > be construed as medical advice.

> > > >

> > > > PLEASE CONSULT YOUR PHYSICIAN BEFORE CHANGING ANY

MEDICATIONS OR

> > > > TREATMENTS.

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