what I am feeling now while in the hospital

[Guest guest]

Thank you for saying I'm pretty. I don't feel so pretty right now

though. I hate the way people look at you when you're sick. Sometimes

that bothers me more than being sick in the first place. Is that

crazy? I am one of those people for whom looks matter so much, and

total independance. And I know that is not always the best thing,

especially in the eyes of a disease like CF, but I think about it a

lot. And it bothers me so much. It kills me sometimes, and then I

feel guilty that I care about something so shallow when I am having

trouble breathing. when my friends come and visit and they are all

made up and look and feel so great I feel so badly. then I feel badly

that I feel badly - it's strange.

Natalia

On Tuesday, January 6, 2004, at 12:27 AM, danieleverettharris wrote:

> Natalia,

>

> You are really pretty!

>

> Gale

>

>

> > Here's me.  Some pictures from the past few years.

> >

> > http://photos.yahoo.com/nboguslawska

> >

> > I know the ones that I sent before did not make it anywhere.  So

> keep

> > yours coming , I want to see your faces.

> > Today has been a great day.  I have been off of oxygen for the

> better

> > part today.  Still have a long way to go, but today some prayers

> were

> > answered.  Small steps.

> >

> > Natalia

>

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