Update

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Here's the scoop with me right now. I've been up all night now with

a very severe flare up. It's now 7:15am and haven't slept a wink...I

almost went to the ER but don't want to be carted out of here in an

ambulance, or have to call my daughter, Jen at 3 in the morning or

wake my husband either ( I feel a bit better right at this moment

so that's why I'm checking email. I have so much to do today in the

way of errands....I hope I can stay awake long enough to get them

done. Stuff that just can't wait, etc. my 8 yr old son Matt needs

some stuff for school and more long sleeved shirts...it's starting

to be downright chilly here in the morning. I don't know what

happened to the summer...it just flew right by me!!

You see, that's the hardest part....it's not just me, but it's the

way it's affecting everyone around me. Dan (my husband) is a nervous

wreck 1/2 the time. I had to call him at work yesterday morning to

see if he could come home and to call the school and tell them that

Matt wouldn't be in because I was just too sick to get him up to the

bus stop or drive him to school. Dan couldn't leave work...being

the " mail man " isn't as easy in that respect to a desk job because

you can't just up and leave. You've got specific mail runs to do and

people are counting on their mail that's for sure...some of them

will call and complain when he misses runs etc., and they don't have

anyone right now who is cross trained to do his mail run. He's the

only one that knows that particular route!! The other part that is

hard about this is they had (thank God not the OFFICIAL open house)

but a sort of " come meet the teacher " night at Matt's school last

week. I, of course, said we'd go and then was too sick that night to

go and had to tell him that...he burst into tears and said that he'd

drawn a special picture of me and Dan and it was waiting in his

school desk for us to see when we went. He still gets teary-eyed

when we mention that...try to ease the thing down a bit by telling

him that it wasn't the OFFICIAL open house (where they have raffles,

school t-shirts they sell, etc., meet teacher, see the library,

etc.) He brought a picture home the other day that he'd drawn (have

I ever told you all what a fantastic artist he is...I should try and

get him lessons..yeah, right another promise I won't be able to

keep) but it was EXCELLENT!! Perfect detail...so perfect that it was

funny almost...I'm going to start framing his art work. I also

(stupidly and this will teach me to make promises that I might have

to break!) told Matt that we might be able to go see that Shark

Tales movie that just came out...oh well, there's always tomorrow I

guess.

But, the one thing I MUST get accomplished today is call and try to

have my new GI doc's office call me today...this is just getting way

beyond what I can handle myself at home here. I actually cut a 50mcg

pain patch in 1/2 and added to my prescribed 150mcgs...I just can't

take these flare ups....awful, cold sweats, laying on the bthrm

floor feeling like you're going to (GROSS ALERT!!) start spewing out

both ends, very severe pain in both the abdomen and back and the

worst of it was severe (ANOTHER GROSS ALERT!!) pressure in the

rectal/vaginal area as though the baby's head is getting to the

crowning point (I'm sure many of you can remember that? Gawd!)

Anyway, will go for now....I'm going to try and stay awake if I

can....

Love,