struggling/maggi

[Guest guest]

I know how you feel. Making the decision to have surgery was very

hard for me as well. I am so thankful that I was brave enough to

take the first step that made it a reality. Ok, actually I was'nt so

brave, I was just more scared to stay morbidly obese then to have the

MGB. I put up a good front. No one knew how much pain I was in.

How much I hurt at work, or getting out of bed in the morning. I

did'nt have much of a life. Now, 7 months after surgery, I feel

GREAT. I can work all day, 10 hours, with no problems. I can get

out and do my own yard work. I can enjoy life.

Take your time, Maggi. Nobody can make this decision for you, you

have to really, really want it. Good luck at clinic, it's amazing.

Have fun all,

B

P.S.

I'm not worried about being thin. It can't be more of a problem then

toting around an extra 200 pounds everywhere. : )

<<<<<<<<<: Struggling Hey, folks. I'm really struggling with all of

this. The adult in me REALLY wants this surgery and knows that it is

the best thing to do. The kid is afraid of being skinny. Wanton woman

and all that mess -- I was sexually abused as an adolescent. Been in

therapy for 7 years, so the adult (and my therapist) know that I can

handle issues as they come up, but the kid is SCARED. I also keep

vacilating about a date for the clinic and for the surgery. At first

I was going to go to a clinic and then go home and think about it for

awhile and have the surgery later. I think I still will do that. At

first I was going to have the surgery around Thanksgiving. Then I

decided that I would watch my new MGB friends, and , and

have the surgery in January (also have a lot going on at work). Now

I'm gettin' jealous cause they are having the surgery now and I don't

want to be left behind. So, I've decided to schedule an October 24

clinic, and then play it by ear from there. Plus, I just realized

that I don't want to go to the clinic by myself. Carol (from

Columbus), if you want to drive to Atlanta for the October 24th

clinic, then we could drive up and go together. I was going to drive

up on Monday, go to clinic on Tuesday morning, and drive home on

Tuesday afternoon. Just a thought. I HATE MAKING DECISIONS LIKE THIS.

I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER. Anxiously awaiting your thoughts, Maggi

>>>>>>>>>>>

[Guest guest]

,

I can really relate to what you just said about feeling miserable at

work and no one knowing the full extent. I have been promoted twice

since the beginning of the year and the " requirement " around the office

is that you are " approachable " at ALL times....there are days that I

don't even want my FAMILY to call me on the phone or my husband to roll

over and touch me.....YEAH...I'm approachable alright. But believe it

or not, NOBODY KNOWS(HOW)THE TROUBLE I FEEL, NOBODY KNOWS MY SORROW

(PAIN). I have managed for the past five years to become a work-a-holic

because I am afraid that if I sit down, I will go to sleep. I work 10

and 12 hour days and when I get home, I don't feel like doing anything

but crawling up inside the covers of my king sized water bed and having

to do it over the next day doesn't help my night time dreams....I find

myself waking up wishing it was Saturday at least 3 days a week.

I am equally afraid of being morbidly obese. I am currently 280 and am

5ft 4.5in tall. I lost a VERY close friend of mine almost two years ago

in November, to Asthma and a Heart Attack. She had just turned 32 on

10/16. She was heavy and having Asthma didn't help. It seems to be

everyday that I drive myself home in constant fear of having a heart

attack or stroke on the way home because every sharp pain or discomfort

has me thinking " something could be severely wrong " .

I have alot of family support for having this surgery, but I think my

friends would only say... " you're okay the way you are and we love you

regardless " ....I just want to be around for them to love even more. NOT

MOURN me.

Thank you for sharing your story with me and I hope we can stay in

contact. CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR NEW LIFE!

Thresa

Rost wrote:

>

> I know how you feel. Making the decision to have surgery was very

> hard for me as well. I am so thankful that I was brave enough to

> take the first step that made it a reality. Ok, actually I was'nt so

> brave, I was just more scared to stay morbidly obese then to have the

> MGB. I put up a good front. No one knew how much pain I was in.

> How much I hurt at work, or getting out of bed in the morning. I

> did'nt have much of a life. Now, 7 months after surgery, I feel

> GREAT. I can work all day, 10 hours, with no problems. I can get

> out and do my own yard work. I can enjoy life.

>

> Take your time, Maggi. Nobody can make this decision for you, you

> have to really, really want it. Good luck at clinic, it's amazing.

>

> Have fun all,

>

> B

>

> P.S.

> I'm not worried about being thin. It can't be more of a problem then

> toting around an extra 200 pounds everywhere. : )

> <<<<<<<<<: Struggling Hey, folks. I'm really struggling with all of

> this. The adult in me REALLY wants this surgery and knows that it is

> the best thing to do. The kid is afraid of being skinny. Wanton woman

> and all that mess -- I was sexually abused as an adolescent. Been in

> therapy for 7 years, so the adult (and my therapist) know that I can

> handle issues as they come up, but the kid is SCARED. I also keep

> vacilating about a date for the clinic and for the surgery. At first

> I was going to go to a clinic and then go home and think about it for

> awhile and have the surgery later. I think I still will do that. At

> first I was going to have the surgery around Thanksgiving. Then I

> decided that I would watch my new MGB friends, and , and

> have the surgery in January (also have a lot going on at work). Now

> I'm gettin' jealous cause they are having the surgery now and I don't

> want to be left behind. So, I've decided to schedule an October 24

> clinic, and then play it by ear from there. Plus, I just realized

> that I don't want to go to the clinic by myself. Carol (from

> Columbus), if you want to drive to Atlanta for the October 24th

> clinic, then we could drive up and go together. I was going to drive

> up on Monday, go to clinic on Tuesday morning, and drive home on

> Tuesday afternoon. Just a thought. I HATE MAKING DECISIONS LIKE THIS.

> I JUST WANT IT TO BE OVER. Anxiously awaiting your thoughts, Maggi

> >>>>>>>>>>>

>

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