Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 Trudy, Very nice post. I think I might put it somewhat differently: placidity, not passivity. We're each taking a very aggressive action to combat a condition that we're convinced is NOT God's will. And we have to have the strength, as you do, to accept the consequences of our actions and decisions, even if our worst fears are realized. I'll be satisfied to go out shaking my fist defiantly if I also know I've done my best to regain the worthwhile life I can have. (Dr. R.: no, this isn't license to commit malpractice!) Best, Jon in Tuscaloosa, ALABAMA!!! > > I don't know if anyone else has ever done this before, but something inside me is screaming for me to do it... > Okay. First of all I am not after any sympathy. I am not seeking any help from anyone about this. I just want you all to know something. > The very greatest risk of having this surgery is death. We are told this many times so that we understand it's possiblity. > I have made so many friends, and shared so much with all of you over the past 2 months or so, that I feel I must share my feelings about that possibility. > I am not afraid of dying, anytime anywhere. With all this weight I am carrying around with me, I am dying right now. I am dying slowly, watching myself being incapable of doing the things that use to make me who I am. > The things that I loved to do. So, in otherwords I am not happy being a lesser person. I'm taking the chance of changing that with this surgery. > If any thing would happen and I would not make it through surgery, I am totally ready to accept that. > I would want my family at home and my family here not to be sad or sorry, but to know that I embraced death, for no matter what I will be thin and happy either way. > And probably cracking up God til his side hurts from laughter... > Please all of you pray His Will Be Done, and accept whatever His Will will be. > I had to share this with you, I've shared everthing else..... > Wouldn't want something to happen, and you guys all think " poor Trudy " . To the contrary more than anything I want to someday see God. I feel it's up to Him when that day will come. And I can accept that. > > Trudy > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 << Wouldn't want something to happen, and you guys all think " poor Trudy " . To the contrary more than anything I want to someday see God. I feel it's up to Him when that day will come. And I can accept that. >> I agree with you 100% Trudy!! That is why I am not afraid of the MGB or any of it's risk... no matter what certain people say. If God wants me tonight.. then I'm outta here and on to a better place where I have a baby girl and lots of family and friends waiting for me... but if he chooses to let me live to me 100.. to all the better. It is not up to us. cindy Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 Wow Trudy that was heavy, it brought tears to my eyes. I am happy that you shared that with all of us. Thank you Pat Iurato Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 No hormones, Flo, just Prozac!!! haha Its for my mood swings.. My family is so happy that I'm on that drug!! You know, Flo, somethin' was just jumpin' inside me saying to post that!! and not even 5 min. after I did a pre-op wrote me to say Thanx.... she was feeling the same way inside about not making it thru surgery, and she was happy I posted that.. Believe me, I had my fat. little. finger on that send button for some time before I finally pushed it... hahaha Yes, I know skinny, me !!! Next year at the picnic.. but everyone will know its Trudy .. she'll still be the one with big mouth, making everyone laugh.. You're a Sweetie, Flo. can't wait to meet you! Trudy RE: You should all know.. > ** > > ** Original Date: Tue, 24 Oct 2000 10:49:03 -0600 > ** Original Message follows... > > I don't know if anyone else has ever done this before, but something inside me is screaming for me to do it... > Okay. First of all I am not after any sympathy. I am not seeking any help from anyone about this. I just want you all to know something. > The very greatest risk of having this surgery is death. We are told this many times so that we understand it's possiblity. > I have made so many friends, and shared so much with all of you over the past 2 months or so, that I feel I must share my feelings about that possibility. > I am not afraid of dying, anytime anywhere. With all this weight I am carrying around with me, I am dying right now. I am dying slowly, watching myself being incapable of doing the things that use to make me who I am. > The things that I loved to do. So, in otherwords I am not happy being a lesser person. I'm taking the chance of changing that with this surgery. > If any thing would happen and I would not make it through surgery, I am totally ready to accept that. > I would want my family at home and my family here not to be sad or sorry, but to know that I embraced death, for no matter what I will be thin and happy either way. > And probably cracking up God til his side hurts from laughter... > Please all of you pray His Will Be Done, and accept whatever His Will will be. > I had to share this with you, I've shared everthing else..... > Wouldn't want something to happen, and you guys all think " poor Trudy " . To the contrary more than anything I want to someday see God. I feel it's up to Him when that day will come. And I can accept that. > > Trudy > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 Gads Trudy: You taking hormones? LOL...Nothing is going to happen but I'm glad you're emotionally prepared! You're gonna be alive and skinny as all get out! You're gonna show up for the picnic next year and people will be saying... " Now, which one is Trudy " and I'll point and say... " She's that stick over there " ! Yup..you're gonna be a stick! We'll be praying like crazy for you and your littermates! Flo in land > ** Original Subject: RE: You should all know.. > ** > > ** Original Date: Tue, 24 Oct 2000 10:49:03 -0600 > ** Original Message follows... > > I don't know if anyone else has ever done this before, but something inside me is screaming for me to do it... > Okay. First of all I am not after any sympathy. I am not seeking any help from anyone about this. I just want you all to know something. > The very greatest risk of having this surgery is death. We are told this many times so that we understand it's possiblity. > I have made so many friends, and shared so much with all of you over the past 2 months or so, that I feel I must share my feelings about that possibility. > I am not afraid of dying, anytime anywhere. With all this weight I am carrying around with me, I am dying right now. I am dying slowly, watching myself being incapable of doing the things that use to make me who I am. > The things that I loved to do. So, in otherwords I am not happy being a lesser person. I'm taking the chance of changing that with this surgery. > If any thing would happen and I would not make it through surgery, I am totally ready to accept that. > I would want my family at home and my family here not to be sad or sorry, but to know that I embraced death, for no matter what I will be thin and happy either way. > And probably cracking up God til his side hurts from laughter... > Please all of you pray His Will Be Done, and accept whatever His Will will be. > I had to share this with you, I've shared everthing else..... > Wouldn't want something to happen, and you guys all think " poor Trudy " . To the contrary more than anything I want to someday see God. I feel it's up to Him when that day will come. And I can accept that. > > Trudy > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 Trudy, I feel the same way but just didn't know how to put it into words. I just read your post to my husband and told him that. Thank you for sharing!!! Ruqayya in Miami Pre-op 11/2/00!!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 thanx Pat, I felt kinda silly once I let it go, but I figured if I didn't say it I would explode, and then dang what a mess that would be for the family to clean up... Ha ha Trudy (sorry it made you cry..) Re: You should all know.. Wow Trudy that was heavy, it brought tears to my eyes. I am happy that you shared that with all of us. Thank you Pat Iurato Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 No, Ruq ... thank you. for letting me know why I just had to do post that. Trudy Re: You should all know.. Trudy, I feel the same way but just didn't know how to put it into words. I just read your post to my husband and told him that. Thank you for sharing!!! Ruqayya in Miami Pre-op 11/2/00!!!!!! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 24, 2000 Report Share Posted October 24, 2000 Me too! If it were up to us we would miss out on a lot of heaven's glory. Phyllis hsmotherof4@... wrote: > << Wouldn't want something to happen, and you guys all think " poor Trudy " . To > the contrary more than anything I want to someday see God. I feel it's up to > Him when that day will come. And I can accept that. > >> > > I agree with you 100% Trudy!! That is why I am not afraid of the MGB or any > of it's risk... no matter what certain people say. > If God wants me tonight.. then I'm outta here and on to a better place where > I have a baby girl and lots of family and friends waiting for me... but if he > chooses to let me live to me 100.. to all the better. It is not up to us. > > cindy > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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