MAW decision made/why do I feel guilty?

January 23, 2004

Well, after four months, has finally decided on what she wants

to wish for. She was thinking about going to Paris, but some of our

friends who have been there told her that unless she likes to look

at old buildings and art, there really is not much for a ten year

old to do there. So, being an ex-travel agent I told her that if she

chose a cruise then she could do all the fun stuff the cruise ship

had to offer AND still be able to go and see interesting places. In

addition she would be able to see many different places. So her next

dilemma was where to go. I told her about Carnival and how fun their

cruises are, but she is not interested in the Caribbean or Mexico.

She finally decided that she wants to go on a Mediterranean cruise,

and boy is she excited. " this is it " she says " this is the one and

I am not changing my mind " .

Its funny because when I talked with the MAW coordinator I actually

felt guilty. I feel like this is awfully extravagant and strange to

ask for something so big. My husband is not excited at all. He says

that " whatever wants is fine " and thats it. He does not want

to beleive that she would ever need an organization like Make a Wish

and I think he feels that there are more deserving children out

there than . I can see his point and this is probably where

some of my guilt comes from. Also, it is hard to explain to

why she does deserve this.She has been on the website and has seen

the other kids that have had wishes granted. She asks me " Am I as

bad as they are? " as she sees the kids with no hair and suffering

from other illnesses. " No honey, you are not as bad as they

are " . " Well then if wishes are for kids who are very ill, why do I

get a wish? "

With the help of my parents, our children have had a chance to

experience some incredible opportunities; perhaps more than the

average 10 year old, so how can I justify asking for a wish?

Sorry this is so lengthy, I needed to express these feelings as

nobody really understands.

e, mom to ,120 months wcf and Ian 156 months no cf

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