TP/ICT

[Guest guest]

I hope that ya'll are all doing well and not having to much

difficulty. The temps are getting cooler and I know for me that is

a relief; hope so for ya'll too. I was wondering if anybody had

heard from the young man who had the tp/ict on Sept 24. I hadn't

seen a posts from him or his family but then again I have had a bit

of a bad spell that had me laid up for a few days. Gosh miss a few

days here and you miss pages and pages.

Well I am up and pacing the cage. I am so nervous and tense because

tomorrow I will fly out to Cincy to meet with the Doc there who

performs the tp/ict. He turned me down once before and I am so

afraid he will do that again. You know once bitten twice shy. My

condition has worsened guite a bit since I saw him last winter. His

nurse has scheduled an OR suite for the case, I think she did anway,

for november 16. I know that OR time is very valuable and the

surgery is 8 hours so just from my own professional experience you

dont waste OR time.

But still I am so scared, this will be my only hope to regain any

part of my life back. There are so many things I can no longer

do. Just the simplest tasks around the house, vacuuming, sends me

reeling in pain. I cant even grocery shop without somebody's help.

I awaken all night from the pain and then have to take even more

drugs.

I feel so pathetic and have placed myself in an emotional exile. I

cant take all the " poor Chrissy " stuff I get from all my oldest

friends and some that were not very friendly. Bumped into a woman

who used to date my husband before me. She was so nasty to me for

years and years. I was always polite, I had no reason to be nasty.

We had a nice chat in the store, its been years. Well as soon as

she got home she was calling around asking what disease I had.

Eventually leading to one of my best friends who did give her a

brief account of what I have endured. My girlfriend called me

immediately to make sure I was ok with that and from the huge

surprise that she would be so interested. Funny thing, it wasn't

gossip the old gal wanted, she really was sincere, so there it is

again that pity that I do so detest.

Well I appreciate ya'll letting me vent. Please think about me and

pray that the doc in cincy will finallyagree with the 3 pancreatic

specialist Isee here, 2 top pathologist, and 2 top radiologist who

all state that the organ is very sick. I have had so many

surgeries, big surgeries. I know how horrible it is. All I want is

to be able to return to my profession, have a fine meal or just

oysters cooked outside with a cold beer and have sex. I dont think

that is so much to ask for, Now if I wanted all of the with Mel

Gibson, that would be too much.

My nervousness is making me ramble on way too much. I just hope he

doesn't say no, (the doc, not Mel) I really dont think I will handle

that well at all. I know i will breakdown. Yeah I am scared out of

my witts. So please if ya'll can send a prayer or positive thoughts

my way the next day or two that would be so wonderful.

Warmly,

Chrissy

[Guest guest]

Dear Chrissy.

Just wanted to wish you the very best in Cinci with you

appointment. Try and think positive. You will remain in my

thoughts and prayers.

Love,

w