Re: To Debbie

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Debbie,

I was feeling for myself when I read how much your going through

yourself. I am sorry and hope that you get to feeling better soon.

I really don't think I am depressed in anyway, although with this

disease we are fighting we have the right to be. But I really am not.

I have felt this way for sometime now. I really noticed it in May when

I would fall asleep at the drop of a hat. And on vacation in June I was

sleeping in SO VERY LATE, which isn't like me and we were not in a

different time zone. If I had to passenger in a car no matter how far,

I would be nodding off and napping. And I even would fall asleep in the

car waiting to pick my son up from school. But thats been happening for

almost a year now. Just chalked that up to boredom of waiting for

school to get out. I would arrive for a parking space 20 minutes hand.

And this has continued since then and gotten worse. Then I added weight

loss excersize this past 5 weeks by walking at least 3 miles a day, if

not 5-6 and that just knocked me over the edge I guess.

Even when walking I will just blow right through the pain when the old

pancreas gets mad from being worked and I won't let that stop me. I get

so exhausted as well and want to try to not walk as far, but I push

myself and keep walking anyway. I really wanna take off this extra

weight I put on and don't know how it got here. I have been stringently

dieting and excersizing since August 25th and have not lost 1 pound nor

have I lost an inch. On the other hand, I haven't gained either. Thats a

plus!

I do trust that God is sending me some message. I just have to figure

it out and that He will never give me more than I can handle in any

situation. I really think my FNP suggested the anti-depressants because

when I saw her Thursday I was SOO exhausted from my days activities, and

sooo tired of feeling this badly for so long and tired of waiting 40

minutes past my son's appointment time to see her, I was literally in

tears. I fell asleep in the waiting room! It's crazy. While talking

to her I was SOOOOOO tired I was curling up on the table in the exam

room because I was too tired to hold my body up.

So perhaps I would have thought to myself, this girl needs meds too.

But I remember feeling this same way when I was trying to prove to all

the doctors that I was sick (with CP) and no one would listen to me or

believe me. Took nearly 2 years to get diagnosed with CP. I went

through my records. Thought it was 4 years but I was wrong. I am SO BAD

with dates! Good thing I keep a day planner for everyday of every

year. I haven't had a pancreatic attack since 4/02. That was my last

surgery as well.

Gosh, I sure hope you get to feeling better. If I can help you, please

let me know.

Sandy in CA

Debbie A wrote:

>Sandy, I can have empathy for you, because I am in the same situation.

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