Re: You should all know.. AND some other words :)

[Guest guest]

Hey Trudy..

First off, let me say, AMEN!!!! Personally I would like to give my

thoughts on this matter.. IF I die tomorrow <or sometime in the next week or

so>, I Was MEANT to go home with God! I don't care if I am with Dr R and

dancing or at home drinking a wine cooler with my family or taking a bath! I

am going to die if it's meant to be!! THEREFORE <why does that always look

like it's spelled wrong?!?!> .... I am not going to worry about the

surgery.. Yes.. I am a little nervous but, I am ALWAYS nervous about the

unknown.. I have a wonderful support system within ALL of my family <y'all

included of course!> and i have a wonderful Dr who loves each and every one

of us and will do his very best to keep us safe! There is ALWAYS an

exception to the rule but I don't plan on being one of them.. But, I AM

prepared if I am! We just never know what hand we have been dealt until we

are able to flip a single card over and reveal a small piece of it of the

WHOLE hand!

Ok.. now on to the news! I called the hospital earlier this afternoon and I

am scheduled for 1:30! I have to be there at 7:30 and really hope for some

reason i can go in earlier... I thought we only had to be there 3-4 hours

early, not 6!!! But, I guess I can't complain too much.. At least I will BE

THERE!!!! YAY!!!!!! If ANY of you who will be in Durham would like to come

see me and my litter mates tomorrow, you are MORE THAN WELCOME!!! I would

LOVE to meet some of you! COME COME COME COME COME COME!!!! Hmmmm... Think I

am trying to say something here?? hehehehe....

Here's to a great dance!!!!

In my thoughts and prayers,

Terri

PRE-OP!

1:30 PM!!!!

10/25/00

BMI 55

" But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate

you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. " - Luke

6:27-28

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> I don't know if anyone else has ever done this before, but something

inside me is screaming for me to do it...

> Okay. First of all I am not after any sympathy. I am not seeking any help

from anyone about this. I just want you all to know something.

> The very greatest risk of having this surgery is death. We are told this

many times so that we understand it's possiblity.

> I have made so many friends, and shared so much with all of you over the

past 2 months or so, that I feel I must share my feelings about that

possibility.

> I am not afraid of dying, anytime anywhere. With all this weight I am

carrying around with me, I am dying right now. I am dying slowly, watching

myself being incapable of doing the things that use to make me who I am.

> The things that I loved to do. So, in otherwords I am not happy being a

lesser person. I'm taking the chance of changing that with this surgery.

> If any thing would happen and I would not make it through surgery, I am

totally ready to accept that.

> I would want my family at home and my family here not to be sad or sorry,

but to know that I embraced death, for no matter what I will be thin and

happy either way.

> And probably cracking up God til his side hurts from laughter...

> Please all of you pray His Will Be Done, and accept whatever His Will will

be.

> I had to share this with you, I've shared everthing else.....

> Wouldn't want something to happen, and you guys all think " poor Trudy " . To

the contrary more than anything I want to someday see God. I feel it's up to

Him when that day will come. And I can accept that.

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