Admitting our Feelings & Fears

[Guest guest]

Hi Karyn

Thanks for sharing your feelings, it is so much harder to express this than

stuff it. Stuffing or candy coating my feelings is easier but it builds up

inside and becomes even more of a monster the more I avoid talking about how I

really feel. The problem is my ego tells me nobody wants to hear what is really

going on in my life and I don't feel safe sharing about it either. Thankfully,

thanks to people like yourself, I am begining to be able to " expose " my

feelings more and more in our little group. Right now, more than ever, I feel as

if my life is drifting off into a dark place of little or no hope. I just don't

think I am all that strong. Day in, day out the same things consume my

thoughts...pain, fear, pain, financial disaster (9 months and still nothing from

SSDI), 46 year old single father of an 8 year old wonderful little boy and I

have to explain why I can't even buy him a " happy meal " . ..bloating,pain, gas,

pain, sweating, pain, shaking, fainting, blurred vision, pain, diahrrea,

sleeplesness, pain......

OK, I know the violins are playing.....I'm sorry, I am just sick and tired of

being sick and tired.

All of this sounds like nuts but thats OK, I feel better.

Take Care

Steve