THANK YOU ALL/ Blast from the past..

[Guest guest]

Wow you guys are great. Thank you for your responses and wonderful ideas.

I am still very nervous about seeing Mike after all this time and also

have another friend coming the following week that I'm nervous about seeing

again as well. This may sound odd but I find that I am now more aware of, and

care more about other peoples opinions of me than when I was 200lbs heavier.

What really freaked me out was that I found myself wandering around my

kitchen looking for something, knowing I don't have that kind of stuff in my

house and also knowing I wasn't hungry. The thought even crossed my mind to go

to the store but I knew if I did I would come home with a bag full of junk

food.

I am amazed at how easy and thoughtlessly it was to slip back into

that habit and it scared me. I guess being conscious of it is half the battle. I

had been under the false impression that I was not so emotionally tied to food

and surprised that my first instinct was to stuff my face.

I think I will do double time at the gym these next two weeks and take

your advice.. go clothes (not food) shopping.. find something flattering and

feel good about myself.

Thank you all... I will keep your words in mind when I reach for comfort

food.