A year and a half out.....

[Guest guest]

Here I am, a year and a half out. Wow. I found a old roll of film

last week and got it developed. It had pictures of me when I was

345lbs and very unhealthy. I always destroyed pictures as soon as I

saw them.So what a surprise to see these! I was both surprised and

shocked. Happy and sad. I cried a little. I now weigh 120 to 130..and

wear a size 3-4. Im constantly yoyoing with that 10 pounds. Just

joined the YMCA so I could start getting back in shape. Havent done

much since the cold wheather set in. People who dont know me are

always shocked to find out I use to be fat. They say I dont look

like someone who was ever fat.(ummmm...what exactly does a use to be

fat person look like I would like to know?)No one thinks I look

remotely like the same person.

Even a couple of doctors have said this to me and my own surgeon

stared at me quite a bit. He was very pleased. I have alot of loose

skin but you cant see it with my clothes on.Lucky for me...lol.

I finally got the job I wanted. And yes I think being small has

helped me land the job. Who says people are not fat prejudice? It may

be a secret of sorts but its certianly out there. I tried for the

longest time to get this job when I was fat and as soon as I got thin

I got it.With no more qualifications than I had before either.

Hmmmm....things that make you go hmmmm..LOL. But regardless, Im

achieving goals. Perhaps it has to do with my new confidence and

perky step. (wink)

What amazes me though, and yet goes against the above mentioned

theory is that as a heavier person I was constantly hit on and

flirted with by men. Nowwwwwww, that Im small and told that Im " hot "

(but never by the person themselves always by someone they told)I

very seldom get hit on at all. This is confusing to me. If Im

so " hot " then why the COLD treatment? LOL. Any insight into this

would be very helpful. I would like to clear up some of the

confusion. While admittedly I work alot its not anymore than I did

before and if anything I was quieter and less friendly as a heavier

person becouse I was always feeling fat and insecure and not " good

enough " Now I smile alot more and make eye contact. I just cant

figure it out.

[Guest guest]

In a message dated 1/15/04 8:04:34 PM Central Standard Time,

cjincharge@... writes:

> If Im so " hot " then why the COLD treatment? LOL.

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Frequently, the really beautiful sexy women sit home alone on Saturday nights

because men are too intimidated to ask them out -- they think, " Dang! She is

gorgeous -- I'd really like to be with her -- but she no way would she go out

with me! " They want to avoid rejection at all costs, so they just move on.

Beth

Houston, TX

VBG - Dr. Srungaram

05/31/00 - 314 lbs.

11/01/02 - Abdominoplasty

11/29/02 - 160 lbs.

5'10 "