Re: Ian Back Home - Thanks to All

[Guest guest]

hey h!!

((HUGS)) to you!! try and stay strong and remember we are all here for

you when ever you need us!! i will keep ian in my thoughts and

prayers!!

jodie c

[Guest guest]

Hi. I am so happy he is home and you were able to celebrate

Christmas. I am sorry this is so difficult for you. I feel for

what you are going through, it seems very similar to Autumn's recent

situation. It is overwhelming. Youre doing a wonderful job!

mom to Autumn RSS, Summer SGA, Ocean, Skye

>

> I've finally had a moment to review the listserve for the last

> couple of weeks. Since 's croup around the 16th - life

has

> been a little hectic around here.

>

> First, thank you Jodi Z for taking the time to keep everyone

posted

> on Ian's situation at the hospital. Thanks too to all those who

> responded with such heartfelt and encouraging words - it really

> meant alot to me.

>

> I've just discussed something with my husband I think would be

> appropriate for you to hear. He reminded me that during very

> stressful times in my life (not always sad - such as when my son

> was born) I tend to close off my life around me. Maybe

> it's a mechanism to protect myself from further pain, stress, fear

> or other difficult feelings. Such as in the case of 's

> birth - although a joyous occassion - it was the overwhelming

sense

> of emotions that caused me to build a brick wall around me.

>

> I've built that wall again. I need it. I'm shutting out the

world -

> I just don't have the energy to talk to anyone or think about

> anything else except for my son's, Ian's health needs, my

wonderful

> and supportive husband and try to enjoy what's around me. It's so

> hard to think about everything going on with Ian. I'm exhausted

and

> worn out mentally. I'm sad.

>

> I went from having a child that ate 2-3 meals a day, supplementing

> with Nutren - to having an NG tube-fed boy, who won't eat much in

> the way of any food, who's angry at me - for the obvious (hospital

> stay), and to the fact that I feel like we are only starting down

a

> path that proves to be more challenging and scary - to be honest.

>

> We have a new Endocrinologist appointment coming up on January 6th

> along with his upper GI tests the same day. I'm hoping to get the

G-

> tube surgery scheduled within a week or two after the tests.

>

> I know this is all no big deal. Things could be worse - we saw

that

> at the hospital and we are very fortunate. Still, it makes me

sad.

> It's so hard fighting for your child's healthcare. It was so

> frustrating getting to a point where we collectively decided

things

> for Ian - it was just exhausting.

>

> Anyway, we had Christmas today. It was very nice. The boys had a

> great time and I even made a nice dinner at the dining table. My

dh

> sais I haven't smiled in over a week. I think I've faked a laugh

> here and there and of course, I forced myself to smile today -

but,

> he knows the difference. It will happen. This overwhelming

feeling

> will get better and in a couple of weeks - I'll wonder what was

such

> a big deal.

>

> Thanks again for all your sweet thoughts, e-mails, posts and

advice

> during our stressful time. I VERY much appreciate it. If I don't

> hang out and post on the listserve for awhile - please don't take

> offense. I just don't have the energy. I care about you all and

> hope everyone is doing okay. I'll check back soon.

>

> - H

>

[Guest guest]

Hey 'H' you hang in there OK. Just remember that we are all here Praying for you

and your Family ok. I will say an extra prayer for you on New Year's Eve OK.

Hugs

Sheldon( G-Pa to Laikyn) RSS, from Snow Covered North Dakota

Ian Back Home - Thanks to All

I've finally had a moment to review the listserve for the last

couple of weeks. Since 's croup around the 16th - life has

been a little hectic around here.

First, thank you Jodi Z for taking the time to keep everyone posted

on Ian's situation at the hospital. Thanks too to all those who

responded with such heartfelt and encouraging words - it really

meant alot to me.

I've just discussed something with my husband I think would be

appropriate for you to hear. He reminded me that during very

stressful times in my life (not always sad - such as when my son

was born) I tend to close off my life around me. Maybe

it's a mechanism to protect myself from further pain, stress, fear

or other difficult feelings. Such as in the case of 's

birth - although a joyous occassion - it was the overwhelming sense

of emotions that caused me to build a brick wall around me.

I've built that wall again. I need it. I'm shutting out the world -

I just don't have the energy to talk to anyone or think about

anything else except for my son's, Ian's health needs, my wonderful

and supportive husband and try to enjoy what's around me. It's so

hard to think about everything going on with Ian. I'm exhausted and

worn out mentally. I'm sad.

I went from having a child that ate 2-3 meals a day, supplementing

with Nutren - to having an NG tube-fed boy, who won't eat much in

the way of any food, who's angry at me - for the obvious (hospital

stay), and to the fact that I feel like we are only starting down a

path that proves to be more challenging and scary - to be honest.

We have a new Endocrinologist appointment coming up on January 6th

along with his upper GI tests the same day. I'm hoping to get the G-

tube surgery scheduled within a week or two after the tests.

I know this is all no big deal. Things could be worse - we saw that

at the hospital and we are very fortunate. Still, it makes me sad.

It's so hard fighting for your child's healthcare. It was so

frustrating getting to a point where we collectively decided things

for Ian - it was just exhausting.

Anyway, we had Christmas today. It was very nice. The boys had a

great time and I even made a nice dinner at the dining table. My dh

sais I haven't smiled in over a week. I think I've faked a laugh

here and there and of course, I forced myself to smile today - but,

he knows the difference. It will happen. This overwhelming feeling

will get better and in a couple of weeks - I'll wonder what was such

a big deal.

Thanks again for all your sweet thoughts, e-mails, posts and advice

during our stressful time. I VERY much appreciate it. If I don't

hang out and post on the listserve for awhile - please don't take

offense. I just don't have the energy. I care about you all and

hope everyone is doing okay. I'll check back soon.

- H

[Guest guest]

hey h!!

you guys are in my thoughts and prayers!! remember i am here for you

even if you want a " shoulder " to cry on just call me!! you were there

for me and i would like to be there for you!! ((HUGS))

jodie c