Haven't posted in ages

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Oh...if ONLY I had your problem. I'm not meaning to belittle it in anyway.

But at least you KNOW what you have to do. I'm toeing the mark, and have

had a huge gain of 30 lbs. I don't know what I can cut or what I can do.

My surgery works fine. My body has decided to store everything....I'm

beyond scared.

Regards~

Jacque

" My cat knows the song in my heart and purrs it to me when my memory fails

me. "

.... And I'm in awful shape, emotionally and physically. I had my 3 year

anniversary on January 30. I too was a WLS poster child, lost 200 lbs. But

most of the old habits have returned I've gained 20 lbs and the clothes aren

t fitting. I can't believe the crap I'm eating. Or the amount. I can't

believe and I'm SO PISSED that I'm here again, for the 9000th time.

I'm struggling with depression, (Been on meds for years, and yes, winter

really sucks) and have also had to put down two of my cats in the last six

weeks. (It was time, they were over 13 years and cognitively, I'm real OK

with the decision, but the void is overwhelming, even with three other cats

and a Jack terrier to keep me company.)

I have been exercising or it would be a 40 lb gain, but it's a bear to get

there. And the weight gain is making it noticeably more difficult and less

enjoyable.

Excuse my language, how the hell do I get off this pity pot? I KNOW the

shaming doesn't help and keeps me in the food. I keep doing " the tomorrow

will be different. " There's a bunch of Atkins protein in my refrig. I can't

see drinking it if I'm going to binge anyway. Seems like a waste.

Part of me questions my mechanics, what should I be looking for? I can eat a

helluva lot of food. 's double cheeseburger is not a problem. An entire

medium pizza.

I am SO ANGRY....and this the really sick part...feeling like, of course,

this was going to happen. It was too good to be true.