chat: Thoughts and Meanderings

[Guest guest]

It's a cold lonely evening. The air is crisp and grabs your throat

as you take a breath. The music playing in the background is

soothing yet brings about those memories that are dear to your heart

and should have long ago been washed away with tears of

forgiveness. It's as if life is only present because it's being

allowed to dance in front of you, little steps and sweeps, only to

pause when a fleeting thought escapes your mind. The children are

asleep and life suddenly presents itself in all its glory. Pain,

sadness, fear, denial, smiles, laughter and excitement – emotions

are continually darting through the mind; which one will be chosen

during this period of stillness when one finally has a moment to

decide to conjecture about life's constant battles with oneself?

It's not easy being required to satisfy the needs of all those

around oneself. It's quite uncomfortable being unable to find that

place of comfort when everything around you is in disarray. Where

is the balance? Where is the peace of mind and feeling of complete

absence of mind when you can escape the daily grinds of fear and un-

resolve? Only we have the answers; they are there right in front of

us. They are the unexpected phone calls, laughter in the voice of a

child, the beat of the music playing in the background and the

silence that surrounds us once the tears wash away. Love is around

us. Time, peace and patience surround our ever increasing need for

that love. Believe it, it is there and it will engulf you over and

over again. Faith.

I wrote this thinking of the many individuals on this listserve who

are going through many difficult journeys in their lives. I hope

you all will find peace in your home at some point soon. You all

need each other.

Thinking of you all.

- H