upset once again

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I haven't been reading in awhile-vacations, etc., so I don't really

know what has been discussed lately but I had to write because I just

came form ny 2 year old's first gym class (like gymnastics- moomy and

me) I thought it would be agreat idea because he can't verbally

communicate and loves to be active so it sounded great.. but it

wasn't. I drove home in tears( behind my sunglasses so the kids

wouldn't see) I almost broke down IN the gym. I had to really fight

to keep it in. Let me explain. I am about 3 months into his eval

and getting speech 2x a week (I was told that I was lucky to get that

much even though he had two words at 24 months). Anyway, we have

been to two ped nuerologists one says yes to apraxia the other says

he won't diagnosis it but says he agrees that he should be treated as

such until he's older and syptome either appear or diminish. Anyway,

I have two appontments waiting for dev. peds, and luckily an

appointment with Dr. Agin in Ny- can't wait until Sept for that one!

I hope the pieces of the puzzle come together. Anyway, I'm

rambling. back to the gym. I have been anxiously watching my son to

see if more motor issues come up- so far I only notice that he can't

smell or jump. But today at the gym, I realized that he can't do a

lot of other physical things that the other kids were doing. The

leader was very kind trying to help thomas who was having a blast! I

was mortified by his constant severe drooling- I didn't know if i

shold wipe it up or ignore it- he followed instructions, followed the

group, seperated form me during " kids time " and other tyhan the

drooling and lack of physical skills did great. But I was so

distressed that he has obviously more issues and even though I knew

he probably would, I still ost it. I felt like evryone was staring

at him and wondering what was wrong with him. It was awful. And I

felt awful for feeling awful. This is my baby and why shoould I care

what others think? ANd I thought I ws past all of this sorry for

myself stage? Thanks for ketting me vent. I could go on, but I

won't.