Re: MS as demon

[Guest guest]

Perhaps looking at MS as a " demon " is hurting us rather than helping

us, and that it shouldn't be a battle, but a growth process. Check

this out (she's been symptom-free for eight years):

The Healing of Multiple Sclerosis

Embracing Love and the Innate Inner Healer

by -Yazmin Albright

I believe disease is a call for our attention, a ³knocking at the

door², so to speak. Disease asks us to look deeply within to find the

answers, so we can heal our beings, our hearts, our souls?our life. It

asks us to heal in a way that, perhaps, we would never have noticed

until the illness demanded our attention.

In 1990, disease began pounding at my door, and I was forced to face

my greatest fear, a diagnosis of multiple sclerosis. With my

background as a professional ballet dancer, I couldn¹t imagine dealing

with a disease much worse, as my self image was strongly identified

with my physical abilities. I was terrified about MS and its possible

deterioration of physical abilities. I had prayed at night that I

would not contract this disease.

I was completely devastated for a month as I went through the stages

common to tragic news; denial, anger, sadness and finally acceptance.

Doctors told me there was nothing they could do. No treatment was

available beyond medication, a course I had once tried and vowed not

to do again. Their assessment was that it could not be healed. I would

just have to ³wait and see how it goes².

What? Wait and see if I became disabled? That, fortunately, was not a

concept that I could or would grasp. So, what would I grasp? What

would I do?

Gradually, I began to focus on a feeling, coming up from the depths of

my being, telling me (contrary to my doctor¹s belief) that it was, in

fact, possible to heal this disease, and that I could do it. It didn¹t

feel true to me that the MS was inevitable; I knew it could be healed.

I thought, ³we can¹t just be left as victims. We have to be able to

heal these things².

This awareness was not based on any scientific evidence. It was a deep

knowing that just felt true. So, I reasoned, if in fact this could be

healed, how would that happen? At this point, I hadn¹t a clue.

First, I decided to try the traditional methods offered at my local MS

Center in Colorado?support groups, biofeedback and nutritional

counseling to name a few. I had done quite a bit of research,

especially on nutrition, beforehand and found that little new

information (for me) was available at the Center. I remember standing

in the circle of the support group, listening to the anguished stories

of people with MS. I wanted so much to say ³it doesn¹t have to be this

way. You don¹t have to be in this pain, it is possible to heal this

disease². But how would I tell them to heal it? I too had MS and

wasn¹t able to heal my own illness.

Since looking for the answer outside of my self provided no solution,

I began to sense that the answers were within. I could feel something

drawing me in, calling me to travel deep inside and find the answer

there. I searched my being, scanning for the connection to something

greater than myself, something bigger than the MS. I explored ever

deeper, waiting for that moment of inner certainty when you know

you¹ve hit the truth. At last it happened?I felt it, that jewel of the

deep truth revealed itself. The ultimate answer was GOD! Of course, it

was God.

I realized in that moment that God is bigger than the MS, bigger than

my fears, and can heal this supposedly ³incurable² disease. God can do

anything. It was THE answer! In that moment, I completely surrendered

the illness to God. I Let Go.

The complete surrender of the MS in every aspect to God was the first

and most profound step in my healing process. I felt as though I

placed the MS in my hands and handed it all over. ³Here God I give

this to you to do with as you will². I then experienced a wave of

relnøf, as though, in that moment, God picked it up and held it, and

on some level inside myself, unknown and unknowable to me before, the

illness was healed in an instant.

This is the God that goes by many names: Allah, God, Goddess, Buddha,

Christ, Love, Universal Truth, The One. It is any belief higher than

oneself, that brings us to our heart, our soul, our deepest truth, our

essence. Essence is the place inside us where we meet God. It is the

truest, most complete and loving part of who we are. It is our truth.

When we connect and honor that truth within us, all things are

possible. The result is an astounding miracle, the miracle of Healing

Love.

What followed was four years journeying into the deepest realms of my

being, connecting profoundly with God, my true essence and my inner

healer. Ultimately, I was required to heal every aspect of my life to

effect the complete healing of the MS in my body.

Stages of Healing

The next critical stage in my healing process became clear to me one

day when I got very angry with my body for being sick. I yelled at it;

I felt betrayed, abandoned, victimized and furious with it. Then,

suddenly, I became aware of an energy moving up through my cells and

nerves, from the very core of my being. It was as if my deepest being

was crying with a profound and intense grief saying, ³if you get mad

at me I can only become more sick; I need you to love me and I will

heal!² In that moment I ³knew², without a doubt, that only by loving

my body and this illness, with all its symptoms, was I going to fully

heal it. In that moment I made a complete and sincere commitment to my

body, my being, my life. I vowed that every decision from now on would

be one of love for my body and all aspects of the MS.

In the four years of healing that followed, I began to learn the

beautiful, precise, articulate and correct language of love for my

body and being.

As I began to profoundly love my body and the MS, the energy of the

illness started to open and soften. It was like the lights came on.

Whenever I felt that light, I knew I was healing. Gradually, I began

to become conscious of an amazing truth. I realized that every symptom

had a specific reason for its existence. It was not present just to

annoy me or make me suffer, as we are taught to believe. Rather, each

symptom contained within it an answer for how I was to heal. The pain

and discomfort were asking me to stop and be quiet, very quiet and as

I listened, I could hear the wisdom it needed me to know in order to heal.

I began to allow myself to step inside the symptom, with love?to fully

feel, embrace and engage the symptom rather than cringe, or run in

fear, or attempt to block, suppress or get rid of it. I would ask the

symptom why it was there and, listening deeply, I would hear an answer

in return. For instance, ?it was that half pound of M & M¹s you ate

yesterday¹. I then remembered that brief moment of rebellion. I would

tell my body that I was sincerely sorry. Then I would ask what it

needed from me to heal. It would give me a remedy, such as, three

primrose oil capsules (to counteract the saturated fat, which is very

bad for MS) and drink a lot of water to flush out the toxins. I would

do what it asked of me and that symptom would disappear completely and

forever. Each symptom I engaged in this way deepened the overall

healing of the illness.

Eventually I learned that, for the MS to heal, I had to heal

everything else in my life, including relationships, self-concepts,

old wounds?everything. When I did something that was not in harmony

with the healing, my body would let me know quickly and intensely with

a new frightening symptom that would put me down in bed for three

days, every time! Believe me, I learned quickly not to disregard my

body. It meant business and wanted to heal. It would not put up with

my silly or rebellious games and would let me know when I strayed from

the healing path. This is why we are not victims of our body. It wants

to heal too.

We have an incredible communication system built into our being. This

system tells us exactly what it needs to heal. Our body know how to

heal itself. It is the body¹s natural state to be healthy and it knows

how to reach that end.

This process took me to some very wounded areas. This, I discovered,

is why I originally contracted the MS. I needed to heal my abusive

past and bring in the love that my being so desperately needed. Not

just human love but also the deep healing of God¹s love.

During the years of my healing process I developed a strong and

intimate relationship with my body and the illness. They became my

best friends. I wanted only to support and love them, to listen and

attend to their needs. It was almost like taking care of a needing

baby or child. You have to surrender to what is being asked of you,

with love, and you receive great rewards in return.

In these years, I learned that fear is an illusion! Fear is a familiar

presence for those facing a debilitating disease. It sure was to me.

One day I was so tired of trying to outrun the fear that I finally

turned around in anger and stared it down. I was amazed to learn that,

behind the fear was the truth of the situation?and that the truth was

always the exact opposite of the fear. But I had to face the fear

first to get to the truth. I began to look forward to facing the fear

so I could see what the truth might be. Truth was always so much

kinder than the fear!

At the time of my diagnosis, I was immensely out of balance and

alignment. My four-year healing process walked me, step by step, back

to my natural balance. I knew the day, the moment, that I hit my

balance. I felt it. All the cogs slipped into alignment with each

other. Whoop! I hit balance! The healing was complete!

Aftermath

But there was a part of me that didn¹t want to completely let go of

the MS. This I discovered when I went to Dr. Ibrahim Jaffe¹s school

for energetic healing. The MS had become my meter in life, always

letting me know when I was ³off². I would simply go to the symptom and

it would tell me where and how to get back to balance. The thought of

letting go of this companion was like saying good-bye to a very dear

friend. But, eventually, through more energetic healing, I released it

and replaced it with God. Now my relationship with the Divine lets me

know when I am out of balance.

More importantly, I discovered a deeper reason to exist in the world.

It is to give back. I realized that God gave me this incredible gift

of healing and I am now to share it with others who struggle with MS.

All the information out there says you can¹t heal the disease, it is

incurable, there are only drugs to take to treat it. But I can say

with certainty that there are other possibilities for its healing! I

am now the person I was searching for when I was first diagnosed. I

remember thinking then, ³if I can find one person who has healed

themselves of MS, then I can too².

The process of connecting with and embracing your inner healer is an

exquisite experience. It does however require a sincere and strong

commitment to the healing process. When that commitment is made, it is

possible to heal multiple sclerosis, or stop its progression, or at

least to feel a whole lot better. I am living proof of it. I believe

that the information essential for healing lives within us all. I am

convinced that this is true for MS or any disease, injury or disorder.

It is about surrendering completely, to God, to the deep love, to the

innate inner healer within, and then listening deeply and trusting

what you hear. Illness can be our most profound teacher.

What a simple, profound, loving and amazing process, where all of the

answers are intact, inside and available through the very thing that

is the issue. I found that the answer to healing the MS is IN the MS!

And that my greatest fear became my greatest gift.

­Yazmin Albright has been symptom free for the past eight

years and considers herself completely healed from Multiple Sclerosis.

Using her own experience with her illness combined with her three-year

formal education from the Jaffe Institute of Spiritual and Medical

Healing, she now has a practice in Portland, Oregon, and has started

the Multiple Sclerosis Alternative Healing & Care Center, working with

people with Multiple Sclerosis and other diseases. can be

reached at: 503/695-2907, healingms@...,