Guest guest Posted April 11, 2009 Report Share Posted April 11, 2009 Months have gone by with very few problems........DD is on Geodon for mood and prozac for depression. Shes making good eye contact, starting to see herself as a positive person, even making a few friends then today the bottom fell out. We were visiting family and a much younger cousin scribbled on DD's sidewalk chalk drawing. DD went into a very loud very angry melt...complete with tears, screaming, curse words and the throwing of chalk. Scared us all because she isn't prone to that LEVEL of melt. I put her in the car and drove around for 10 minutes with her calling me every name in the book until she calmed down. We went from absolute screaming 'I HATE YOU " fit to...'oh my god, I hate myself..I just want to die " 15 minutes later we were back at cousins house, DD apologized and for HER it was over with...as if nothing had happened at all. For me.....not so much. I feel sick to my stomach. I fear that she is going to get worse. Fear that she will hurt someone. Fear that she will NEVER be able to survive without me there to smooth things over. Fear that I have done all a mom is capable of doing and its STILL not enough. Fear that we will have to up her medication. Fear that at 10 she is eyeball to eyeball with me...what will happen next summer when she is towering over me and has a melt? Fear that we have no biological family information and MAYBE...just MAYBE there is a medical reason for all this rage. Thanks for listening Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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